Iza's Blog

2010-12-12T17:20:00.036+08:00

Here's my stories from Aug to December :D
YOGness! th experience as victory ceremony flag bearer was really awesomeeee!!
i was in team 7.. below are th flagbearers(FB) of team 7!
thats govind, afiq, shahdan, zhenlin, me, and faris!
voluntary task we hadta do. looks stupid lah actually, we labelled th locker keys fo th athletes lockers at scape. LOL!
our luck also, we got to meet clickfive! ^^
cos they were at scape hahahaha.
anddddd we koouuuuup some free bottles haha!

my badge :D
okay we didnt go kbox. outside only hahahaha.

shahdan's LOL. xD
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listening to australia's national anthem xD
preparing theee flags~ call it lucky or not, it rained on our first VYC and we were all soaked wet!

proud to say we were th only outdoor VYC FB team tho! hehhehh :D

they were in heaven! fo a while lol.
hana and mee!
okay whatever you may think it means hahahahaah.
th crew lol. okay, shahdan & me favourite pose!

OKAY HERE COMES TH STUPID SURPRISE.

OKAY SHUTTLE BUS TO MRT.
shahdan sleep, afiq look fierce. hahahaha.
*flagbearer handshake* haha!
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killing time in our container hahaha.
camwhore :D
shahdan's story.

aiyoyoyoooo..!!
back to preparing for VYC :D
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practice as scape :D
End up playing also hahahahaha..
camwhorezz :D

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afiq and me kicked ard haha.

back at marina!

damn nice right th place!

so camwhore somemore lah haha.

weather got too hot, so we took sometime to rest haha.
youtubing~
still youtubing before preparing for VYC..
after th VYC, keeping th flags time..
took pic wit th spain rower :D
CAMWHOREEEEE~~

it was our last day at scape, so we camwhore wit more specialnessssss hahahaha!
and we went ard taking pics with anyone! xD

this guy is from tunisia.

this guy has got flippers LOL!
rilek one corner haha.
walkingggggggg..
I SERIOUSLY LOVE THIS PIC. DAMN COOL RIGHT!
Part 2!
okay extra. hahaha xD
hana and meeee :D
took pic with this guy also but camera accidentally senget position hahah.
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VYC at scape!

AND IT WAS SHAHDAN'S BIRTHDAY!! ^^
afiq and me went to buy and make the cake! :D
NICE RIGHTTT HAHAHA.
aww..
so i'll end this YOG STORY wit happy boyyy photo! hahahaha!
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BREAK FAST AT BEACH ROAD THEN WENT GEYLANG.
saw some actors!
rosyam nor mannnnn! okay and mastura ahmad also hahaha.
okay hi.
aiyoyo.
shahdan and meeeee!
afiq, me & shahdan!

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UNIVERSAL STUDIOSSSSSSS!!~~

all this inside got cadbury choc okay! sweet right i give all of em hahahaha. :D

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JALAN RAYE YOG!
at shahdan's!

under my block haha.
under afiq's block.

at afiq's place!

we shall end off th jalan raye story wit th goblin faces HAHAHAHA.
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56TH TOC Parade :D
afiq and me went to support shahdan hahah.
fara was also th emcee ^^

okay, saturday morn im off fo MSIA!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE.
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love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

2010-08-01T18:26:00.003+08:00

SO MANY WORK,
SO LITTLE TIME.
SO MANY THINGS,
SO LITTLE DIME!

Alang- alang menyeluk pekasam,
Biar sampai ke pangkal lengan..

GO BOBON!!
end of 2011 here i come!

2010-07-06T08:22:00.008+08:00

hi! im not in school today.

i hibernated like th whole of yesterday cos was having fever. 38.0degrees.
but im much better today.
but my head still feels alil heavy haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OM OM OMAIRAHHH!!
i was super disappointed when brazil lost.
even my kaka bottle felt me.
i accidentally dropped it & it broke!! D:
my left foot still pain. i just realize a few days ago that its been more than a month!

sometimes itd be nice to have someone to fall back to,
especially after a whole long day of shitty work and school,
someone whom we can just ring or beep anytime,
and express anything we want, be it in just words or even rhymes

sometimes itd be pleasant to be somebody's special,
who'd give you random cute names just by combining your initials,
someone who'd tell you sweet nothings just to see you smile,
who'd simply make you feel that life's really worthwhile.

sometimes itd just be wonderful to have someone by your side,
but guess i'll just hafta wait till ive found my own clyde.
well sometimes i do wish i'll find mine soon,
cos my heart's been feeling empty since all th storms & typhoons.

but then again, i know i cant look for one at this point of time
since i feel so occupied with other priorities in mind
i wouldnt dare risk my future to pursue that at th moment,
cos i know id lose direction when i fall deep into disappointment

but it would just be so wonderful, if i found him along th way,
someone whod share wit me th same future and wouldnt let me go astray.
in the meantime, i'll just endure and stick to th plan,
cos theres other things to settle, other problems at hand.

040710

2010-06-21T21:41:00.006+08:00

hello. holidays been packkeddd. o:
I CANT WAIT FO TH END OF 2011.
I CANT WAIT TO END SCHOOL.
I CANT WAIT FO A REALLLL HOLIDAY.
i want to do whatever i want.
i still havent finish my wall doodle ):
i still havent go fly kite this holiday ):
i still havent go cycling this holiday ):
& only left last week. - TO STUDY FOR MIDYEARZZZ.
zzzzZZZZ..
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lets see,
1st week of june, still had lectures (tues-thurs) -.-
on th monday had GP exam. i wonder how i done. 0:
then we went fo learning journey.
more of like a class outing! :D at vivo.

then it was ROBINHOOD! ^^
the whole cohort watched at @ lido haha.
AWESOME MOVIE.
friday had chrystal camp.
saturday had YOG grooming.

mairah, mardiah & me got alil lost at NUS. so we were late cos we couldnt find whereee they were. -.- but we found sazleen then we found th rest haha.

2nd week, i came down to prss on mon & fri fo ncc trg fo 25th anni parade & fsd!! :D
missed ncc trgs! haha.
wednesday had soccer LIKE YEAY AFTER SOOO LONGGG.
and friday had a friendly match we won 2-1 vs ite central!!
& I PLAYED K. hahahaha.
hmm, saturday had YOG practice.
i was taught how th rowing victory ceremony would be like.
i practised for th gold flag.
ours was th winching method.
on sunday, we had th so called rehearsal but it was real one for Asia Rowing Cup.
hongkong & uzbekistan conquered all 4 categories.
so my team raised th flag wit hongkong national anthem.
it was short.
sg's is 78s if im not wrong.
hongkong is 51s.
uzbek is damn long, 98s i think.
hahaha.
like theres a big difference on th speed that we raise th flag youknow.
like cool like that. LOL.
imagine for the real YOG, there'd be so much more variety of countries.
and we'd hafta rmb th different durations of national anthems! o:
hahahaha.
okay.
also on the sunday morning,
I RAN MY FIRST MARATHON ^^

10km oi. hahaha.
its mizuno run.
after running a while then i realised why its also called mount faber run.
got so much uphills!! D:
but also got downhills lol.
i took 1h 27mins.
among us, abang ali finished first.
then me.
then abang who was wit kak zo :D
so after th run, i went fo th YOG tingy i talked about earlier.
ohyes, i also met brian at th mizuno run haha.
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& IN BETWEEN I DID MY MATHS INEQUALITIES TUTORIAL. hahahaa & smth else i fogot what.
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3rd week!
was supposed to go fo spec course phase 3 @ HQ on mon-wed.
but i find replacement, cos i realise i need more time to study fo MIDYEAREXAMS.
i was trying to finish revise physics. till now left 1 mo chapter.
i intended to practise th TYS but i think not enough time hehhh. other subjects i havent do.
BTW, ON TUES,
I WAS ON TH NOOSE!! hahahaha.
i didnt kno it was on teevee until farah fir & sabrina told me on msn.
& luqman fsd called me. & faris & khalis texted me. LOL! hahahaha.
few secs of fame on national tv HAHA.
so then few days back i found it http://video.xin.msn.com/watch/video/the-noose-3-episode-3/1gqc13ilq.
its 13:28 if im not wrong. hahaha. :D

on thurs, watched prss 25th anni concert @ esplanade.
okaylah not too bad :D
took alot of photozz ^^

then on friday,
went makan at geylang wit family fo lunch haha.
in th evening we went metro @ compass/sengkang.
did alil shoppingz. LOL.
I BOUGHT A DRESS!! ORANGE COROURRRR!! VELIII NAISEEEE! ^^
on saturday, went fo branch wit family at rumah minang!!
a form of celebrating fathers day :D
(L)
sedapness!
after that, in th evening my siblings & i went out to watch kak zo's pementasan at RP.
we were early. so went woodlands inter & eat at long john first. :)
OHYES, I WAS WEARING MY NEW DREZZ :D:D HEHHEHH.

ehehhee, so the pementasan was awesomeee.
i cried sia.
hahahaha.
kakzo was funneyyy! hahaha.
then after th event,
my siblings tgr wit kakzo went to catch midnight movie @ TM.
i kno it sounds slow but we watched prince of persia!!
LIKE HOMGD FINALLY.
IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SUPERRRRRRRRRRR AWESOME.
I LOVE ITTTTT.. hotstuffffz.
hahahahaha.
ok then sunday,
HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

drew a lil smth fo daddy haha.

CUTEEE RIGHTT?! hahahaha. actually it was fo th suria Ayahku Hero tingyyy haha.
haha, i went out wit nisa & sarah whee.
hahaha camwhored tooooo.

then 2.30am watched th 2nd brazil match.
SO POOR THING LOR KAKA. sighhhh.
its ok, brazil stil awesome.
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NOW IM LEFT WIT TH LAST WEEK.
I REALLYREALLY NEED TO STUDY D:
MONDAY IS FIRST PAPER - maths & geog.
to think about it,
wth did i started to study physics first? i should have studied geog first!
phy is th last paper sia ahahhaha -.-
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okay people, wish me luck.
i love you!
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LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

i still believe.

2010-06-21T21:25:00.003+08:00

You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it’s crazy, but you still can touch my heart
And after all this time you think that I wouldn’t feel the same
But time melts into nothing, and nothing's changed

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

Each day of my life, I’m filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I,I'm not the desperate type
If there’s one spark of hope left in my grasp, I'm holding it with both hands
It’s worth the risk of burning, to have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no, I need you, baby
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again,

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
You and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe
Someday you and me (Just give me one more try)
In love again

I had a dream (I miss your love)
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe
Someday you and me (will find ourselves in love...)

2010-05-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

semua orang nampak.
semua orang tanye.
aku tak suke.
bila bebende ni seme nak pupus?
aku hanya inginkan yang biasa.
biasa sebagaimana orang lain punye.
kecacatan ini menjejaskan cara aku hidup.
mungkin taklah serabak segelintir orang yang lebih tidak beruntung.
aku bersyukur,
cubaan yg melanda diri ini tetap boleh dipandang ringan.
tetapi, aku lihat orang sekeliling, mereka takde pun ni bende merepek.
aku penat.
aku lelah.
bilakah ia akan berakhir?
orang nampak. sejelas-jelasnye.
aku malu.
aku paiseh.
banyak kali, aku mcm nak sentiase selubungkan diri je.
nak sembunyi.
tapi aku tetap, terpakse menghadapi hidup seperti biase.
membayangkan seolah-olah ini seme tak wujud.
bile org tanye, aku step macam takde pape.
hanya Allah je tahu betapa siksanye this shit is.
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pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee drive them away, ya Allah.
please.
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sebulan, hanya sekali!

2010-04-18T22:03:00.016+08:00

HOKAY! HELLOHELLO!
firstly, alfatihah to achik spin. :(
its so sad suddenly he passed away!!
he's only 27 mann.
i didnt believe it when i first heard it from faiz's msn nick.
i thought it was just rumours!
his family must be damn saddd..
fans too.. like me & kakak & all my cousins. hmm..
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okaay, now let th pictures do th talking OKAY?
CLICK PICTURES TO ENLARGE K. B)
altho some are alil jumbled up.
like, i cant drag th foloing photo downwards!
okie this is kaknin's bday prez for meeee! chocolates!
I MISS KAKNIN.
hurry back home okiie kaknin?

oh, then this photo was taken like, one of th morning that Ayah sent me to school. th car in front of us accident. luckily we didnt bang into them, th first car sudden brake, then th 2nd car didnt had enuf time to stop in time.. this is th first time i witnessed an accident! hahaha!

next, long postponed fsd photos. these were taken in feb! :D:D
where PRSS got 4th place in east districttt! ^^
hehhh, almost 2 mths alr!
i miss them!

if you can spot th tiny me at th back wit shalihin. hahaha.

i like this photoooo alottt! btw, i sprayed their hands!! ^^ *self credit! hahaha!*

next, NEW DISCOVERY,

6 PPL IN THIS K1 PHOTO ARE LIKE, IN MJ NOW.

hahahaha amazing huhhh!

andand, i cuteeeeeeeeeee rightttt?! hahaha!

nexttt,,,

my prebirthday period!

it was a surpriseeee!

my cousins and i went watch alice in wonderland!

then after that went mcd!

then suddenly appeared a mini cake!

hehehehhh, thankyouuu sisterssskuuuus! ("v")

mimi & meeee! *birthday girlsssss HEHHEH!*

COOOOL RIGHT, under escalator hahaha.. i snap one ok!

ookay jumbled up, this photo was taken first. hahaha.. before entering th cinema hall. NACHOS!! slurppssssss~

nexttt, a random photo at soccer trg. hahahaha. this one was th fashion statement day. all of us wore th pink hairbanddd, COOL HUH! hahaha i likeeee!

okaaaaay, 16-18 march SPEC COURSEEE!

my first camp as in instructor since i passed out from 58th!

funfunfun. tiredtiredtired.

God knows how much holiday homework i couldnt finish!

i brought hmwk to camp siaaa. but i did like damnnnnnnn few. LOL!

i think this is a nice shot.

this one too!

this one alsoooooooo!

ohyes, definitely this one too! I LOVE OMAIRAH!

MY PLATOON! i was th APC with ashraf. and zhan quan was th PC.

i miss them alr. altho th platoon name was too common 'kamikaze', hahahaha. "KK" is nicer! LOL! *kazekameyyy* haha!

ashraf and i killed time.

oh yea, th kiddies thought ashraf and me are siblings! hahaha! either thattt, or thought we were an item HAHA! do you think we even look alike? hahahhaa!

actually th bunch of us camwhored many moreee. just that i never upload here. AND OOPS I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ONE OF TH PHOTO HERE. alamakkkk i undo but it never appear agaiiiin. :( i lazy to upload agaiiiin. :0 heh.

outside army museum there. hahaah.

oooh! and here is at work. i think i look like damn pemalas righttt. haha!

this one too.

anddd, it sure was more than pleasant to actually have th wholeeeeeee bravo coy singinggg birthday songgg fo you! ^^ hehehehhhe.

nextttt!

house comm nominee days.

hahahaha.

had an awesome time wit my loveliiiie team!

our task was to redeco th triton board. hahaha. so this was th sat afer goodfriday..

FAIZAH // YIZHEN // THAHIRA // NAUFAL! ^^

our masterpiece! NICE ANOTTTT?!

LEFTHANDERS AT WORK! heheheheh!btw, im really proud of th 3 of em, they got into housecomm!

THANK YOU GUYS, fo making me feel okay.

I LOVE YOU THAHIRA! hahahaha.

tritooooon all th waaaay!

LASTLY, NCC AFFIRMATION @ EXPO on 10april!

okay th pictures are like, backwards. this is th last photo fo that day lol!

we were walking from expo to eastpoint!

as ridhwan claimed its 5mins walk!

hahaha!

i loveeeeee this photo! so cool! timer damnn sweee!

farnooo & me!

shahdan and meee!

aliiii and meee! actually gott moreee lahh, all on fb! hhahaah. i just put some here hehhehehhh.

EAST YO!

PRSS NCC G PART A 2k10! (farah taught me th 2k10 thing! hahaha!)

my loveeee OMAIRAH. hahaha!

camwhoreeee~

farhaaan andd meee! cool siaaaa th whole facepaint & shades and sar21!!

too bad i didnt get this job. hahaha.

*end of photos*
SO JC BEEN BUMPY!
very time constraint lahh, thts all i can say.
besides that, things are getting better.
im adapting!
more hmwk are being done on time now.
hahaha.
and i finally passed a test last week.
FIRST TEST I PASSED.
damn happy mannn!
maths haha, 12/20.
lol, not that good i know.
hahahaha whatever.
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love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

GP Glogster lol.

2010-03-06T21:53:00.001+08:00

my overdue GP hmwk. hahah.
click th somewhere top right of th glog, VIEW FULL SIZE!
:D:D

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i love it when meridians roar!

2010-02-27T21:27:00.006+08:00

ahhhh, finally i squeeze time to bloggg.(!!)
almost one month alr!
after this i nidta do econs project.
hmm, Mj has been great so far.
ofcoz th whole studies thing is like,
who would likeeee onee rightttt.
so but like, whatodo.
coz it'll end with a happy ending.
:)
so anyway!

IM OFFICIALLY in MSG(Meridian Soccer Girls) lolll!
*MY FIRST SOCCER BOOTS.* ^^
just bought it today at mustafa centre lolllll.
after th parents session in th afternooon.
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IN LOVING MEMORIES,
my sayang wallet.
it has served me since 2008. 2 years.
got it from nads & sya on my bdaaaay hehhhehh....
okay, last friday(not ytd),
had lunch wittt my new classmates!
10s403!!
tho not everyone was able to be present..
@ ehub BBQ Chicken there. :D& Jaron got 'blinded by the lights'
HAHAHAHA!!
oooh, yingting & me camwhored a lil' LOL!
*tritonnn!!*
on th left, my Fish & Chips.
on th right, yingting's chicken smth(lol, i fogot what its called! :x)
slurpsssss~
very nice. and ex. this was my first time eat at BBQ chicken. lol!
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okayyy,
on 13th feb,
kaknin left fo melbourne alrrrr! :(
i made this fo her.

so she'll always rmb that th family will always be there fo her.
& i told her, no matter how many times she drop this heart, it will never break.
i assure you/her. :) *loveeee*

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next!
FSD!!
DO YOU KNOW THAT PASIR RIS SEC FREESTYLE DRILL TEAM
SUCCESSFULLY GOT IN TH TOP 5 AGAIN?!!
im so happy lahhhh!
we got 4th this year, IN TH EAST~
mighttt get to go 'wildcard' fo th grandfinals.
but not sure.
super proud of my golden turtlessss!!
this photo is one of th sundays they came over at my house voiddeck,
altho it wasnt full strength but, yes i happy. :Di'll post other photos aanother tiime okaaay.
and th video of our performance, once i get it from johan! ;D
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lastlyyyy,
during th orientation,
im in TRITON 7! it was awesomeeeeeeeee!
ALTHO I FELL SICK ON TH 3RD DAY.
feverfeverfever..
where i missed th finale!! D':
so saddd.
but ive moved on hahaha.
I LOVE MY 10S403!!
I LOVE MY FSD TEAM!!
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okaaaay lastlyyyy,
current happenings.
i've learnt that,
IN LIFE, GIVEN CERTAIN CIRCUMSTANCES,
WE JUST NIDTA BE ALIL' SELFISH.
my parents, went over to perdaus this morning.
i nidta withdraw from bunayya.
too much commitmenttt,
i cant cope..
let me list some things.
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Firstly, im honestly struggling to adapt to th JC life. th whole lecturer-speaks-so-fast,-what-did-she-say?-thinggg. i realize i reallyyy need to read up alot beforehand & afterhand, in order to understand and grasp everything. besides that, th tutorials to do. essays & projects. things are newww, so im still adapting. i need to have time & space on my own.

Secondly, CCA. Yes im already in NCC, a cadet officer. However, in MJ, that's my second/external cca. i have to have one within th school, like that. so i picked soccer girls. dont ask me why. i just believe that it'll be fun, thou tiring. & i got in!! somehow, i will pull through. i gave a lot of thought. th council also almost psychoed me to join, but i think again, i shudnt. Soccer is like, Mon, Wed, & Fri. i reach home at about 8 on these days. & i try to keep up with NCC, on fridays too. as fo th past few weeks, i came to help th FSD team outside th friday trainings so yeah. & This march, i need to fulfill th last criteria to move on from being Cadet Officer to C/2LT. i need to be involved in conducting a hq camp. fo my case, is Spec Course Phase 1 this march holz. 16-18march haha.

Yea, im still adaptingggg.. so i tend to feel super tired when i get home aft th mon, wed & fri. i even fall asleep while writing. so not much hmwk i get to complete. what more, the bunayya things? i have procrastinated hmwkssss, which is still not done yet.

I managed to withdraw myself from th NCC Affirmation Ceremony Committee. because i had too much to handle. then th mtgs usually held in Ang Mo Kio & i got school, so its like, im becoming a dead member.

YOG Victory Ceremony Flag Bearer(under NCC), im still in, because i want to. i believe it'll be a once in a lifetime experience coz many say this is the first & last that singapore can hold such a big event. so im grabbing th opportunity. in fact, im excited! got th shirt alr, haha.

You see, people say "when there's a will, there's a way", i can imagine ustazah aisyah saying it to me if i tell HER that im withdrawing. the thing is, i can if i want to. unfortunately for you, i dont want to. I'm th kinda person who's like, when i commit, i all out one. Either all out, or not at all. and ive realised that its not worth th hardwork. like, i dont enjoy this thing. its not my passion. if im free at this point of time, sure, by all means i'd volunteer to help out. but because im kinda occupied, so i kena squeeze time fo everythinggg, in other words lotsa work. its time consuming. esply when im a 'captain' and th mtgs add on to th time constraints that i face.

plus, im not willing to do it anymore because, basically, i feel that its not worth th effort. work so hard, then kene like tindas. kena laughed at. what kinda rubbishy management is this project having? like, ppl ahead of th requirement, also kene reject. main objective is to org camp what. there's so many routes to get to a destination. just because we alight at a diff bustop, does it mean we always need to go back to th interchange to get a diff bus?

then, when time is like a scarce resource(lol, econs), we use it sparingly right. we put a time allocation so that we dont spend too long on certain things and that way we wont eat into ppls precious time wich are meant to do otherrrrrr more important things.

minor details can just discuss with th respective people whom it concerns right, dont have to have everyoneeee to be there right. why? because time constraint. then, when you cause th time overshot, you blame us fo dillydallying. shouldnt you blame yourself too?

come on lah, everyone got a life. got school, got responsibilities. you're not th only involvement that we have.

then when you ask ppl to pick a dateline, we say we not sure when. then you say just pick a date. and when we do, you laugh. you never specify whether its too late, or too early. wth? what kinda pembimbing is this?
"buah cempedak di luar pagar,
ambil galah tolong jolokkan,
saya budak baru belajar,
kalau salah tolong tunjukkan."
your laughter doesnt help.
it does not contribute to our learning.
i dont see th objective.
you're bringing down your own students.
if you havent realise, you've been giving us like a very bitchy attitude.
like you big shot, all must listen to you.
all must do your way.
like ive said, there's so many routes.
why must diedie folo your route when our route,
will still lead us to our destination?
it could've been a shorter route, even.
.
your own akhlak, has to be corrected,
before grading/judging ours.
we need to communicate with each other politely.
people make mistakes,
you dont hafta like shoot them in th face,
rebutt sarcastically,
& embarass them right?
pembimbing, would correct his/her student nicely,
and thats how you'll be respected.
you need to treat us with respect too, you know.
we're all human, & we make mistakes.
like you.
you dont see us humiliating you when you make mistakes.
where's your basic manners?

none of us has ever wanted to be in this thing,
why do you behave like, so attitude,
as though we want this so badly?
come on lah, i dont want to come to something that i dont want to,
just to see your sulky face.
i'd rather leave, & i mean it.

and you cannot compare us to someone who is like,
this is his passion.
hence, he can cope.
he can if he want to.
we can if we want to.
with th experience we're facing wit you,
you think we want to?
of coz i respect him.
fo being such a model person.
its th same thing fo all of us, just that we have different passions.
you could help to make th experience a better one,
by not giving us attitude, and giving us basic guidance and understanding.
after all,
you're suppose to be guiding us.

no doubt, change is good.
thats why you implement these new things.
i respect th whole outdoor activites still can go on, without leaving islam thing.
just that your management is wrong.
you say we waste your time.
id say you waste ours too.

i wouldnt have withdrawn from this camp,
if th ppl who oversees it knows how to make full use of th time that we have committed & dont abuse it,
if th ppl who oversees it knows how to make th experience worthwhile.
its like, come on, many of us has conducted camps before.
you dont have to make things so petty-ish.
simple things, you complicate it.

if withdrawing from th camp is still a nono,
i honestly will withdraw from perdaus.
because i know it'll take time before you change your ways.
and i dont have enough time till that happens.
coz im struggling right nowww.
everyone has their own limits.

love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

ps: took this pic at ECP lol. th sky so niceeeeeeeeeeee righttt!
ohyes, im really amazed wit geography. didyou know that all th continents used to be one piece of land? hahahaha lollolololl. OK BYE.

2010-01-30T01:04:00.009+08:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so.
Seems like its been forever,
That you've been gone.

.

please come back home..

2010-01-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

hi!
first day. today.
MJC.
hahaha.
lots of sitting.
lots of listening.
eyes got sleeepy.
tummy was grumblingg.
feet was having pins&needles!(is tht what you call it?)
and butt got numbbbb!!
.
talks on subject combination.
like reallyreally.
luckily i jot down,
if not,
information overload!!
so we hadta decide on th subject combination we want.
.
i took a longlongggg time deciding between
CHEM - coz im familiar wit it. havg it at H1 maybe i could score.
GEOG - interesttt! no more stupid types of forestsss, so i likee!
ECONS - smth new and everyone says it'll be useful fo future use.
-which to eliminate!
.
so finally after some discussions wit my familyyyy,
i eliminate chem.
im not fully confident either, but one has to goooo! :0
so heh yeah.
anyway im not gonna take medical-ish/science-ish things after jc.
so hopefully its alrite. :)
.
we hadta submit tonight, just now.
so rushinggg!
thats why i had to crack my brains in finding reasons why this why that..
hahaha.
.
H2 MATHS. H2 PHYSICS.
H2 ECONS. H1 GEOG. & th normals.
.
God Willing,
i will excel..
*groans a warcry* HYEAAHHHH!!!!
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.
.
ps: went out ytd!
watched toothfairy!! very niceeee~~
and photos wit nads, val & sya..
will uploadddddddd sooooooon!! :D:D

Ayah & Kakak bday!

2010-01-24T22:41:00.013+08:00

Saturday,

23 January,

AYAH'S BIRTHDAY!!!happy 50th, ayah!
ilyilyily!
BEST DAD IN TH WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!!!!!
.
my family went eat at rumah minang!
wah faveret!!
this is tahu telor!!
tho th rice got smaller. :(
mummy & me. :D

oh Thursday,
here's photos on kakak's bday too. th cake damn sedappp, i tell you!
.
oh Friday,
went for ncc!
had th new part As,
okaay lah.
quota fo girls was supposed to be like 7?!
F RIGHTTTTT.
but we get 10.
aiya okaylah.
i just find th system stupid.
where, th cca work so harddd alr fo cca day.
then many ppl interested alr.
but th cca department would give quotasssss.
like so unfair!
:(
.
OH then went to meet Kaknin & Kaksiti!
.
and Sunday today,
madrasa 8 - 11 as usual.
BUT SITE RECCE TILL 6!!!
ahhh, tireddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
Camp will be on 13th & 14th march tho.
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

2010-01-21T17:33:00.005+08:00

Today's Thursday.
21 January,

KAKAK'S BIRTHDAYYY!!
wells kakkie,
ima wish you alll th besttttt,
as mentioned in my teeny birthday note(lol),
and ilyyyyyyyyyyymanymanyyy!!
oh,
i let kakak pick what present she want from me,
from her list of wishlist..
th you-kno-whr-i-got-it-from.. xD
with a given budget, haha.
so we went to buy her colourless contacts last nite.
as well as mine too. hehhhhe.
so yupppp!
oh, makwan made pizza for kakak!
SEDAPNESS!.
so anyway,
this week has been full of all kinds of things.
.
Tuesday,
initialinitial plann, 72ftg.
but postponed to Friday(tmr)
HAPPY 16th BUNNIESSS!!
ilyilyg!!
okay then, change of plans,
was supposed to meet iqqa & omairahhh. in th afternoon.
skali!
i was woken up by th vibration of my phonee.
some number,
i picked up,
*as you know, my phone was like bonkeringss,
i can hear, but th other side cant hear meee*
thenn, oohhh it was abangnashh.
then i jumped outta th bed and rushed outta my room to get th home phone,
coz, like idk how many missed calls already..
skali!
idk whatthehell was wrong wit my homephoneee.
dialled out 5-6 times,
engaged.engaged.engaged!!
then i run to Abang's room,
!!..
finally used abang's phone.
"IJA! NAK GI JOHOR?"
hahahaha!
wahhh, so sudden!
long time never go out wit cousincousins!!
so.. Atok, my uncle, aunt, Kaknin & Abgnash..
and ME!
i quickly showered and grabbed my passport..
i had no idea where my parents went though.
hahah.
skali!
my brother said my parents went johor also.
hahaha.
so umm.
we surprised my dad at Giant.
but my mum end up being angry & annoyed.
-.- WHOOPS!
oh anddddd,
th car broke down otw back home.
after th custom.
BERASAP! :0
so we got stuck at th highway.
wit alll th barangbarang.
hahahha!
so we got rescued,
and then we went over to grandparents'.
.
Wednesday,
was supposed to go out with Sarah & Nisa.
damnnnn, i feel very bad,
but i really felt #$%^.
like,
we've been looking fowardddd.
but i felt very idk-how-to-explain.
like very unsettled.
but ive been so occupied that i also didnt have time to renew my phone.
so finally i went starhub that day.
after that went back to my grandparents' again.
...
.
ANYWAY, I GOT A NEW PHONE ALR.
HTC TOUCH 2!
IM NO LONGER WIT SINGTEL.
IM A STARHUB!
YAY.
K.
BYE.

what happened to him?

2010-01-18T16:12:00.006+08:00

1myf.

-something ive been restricting myself to say for weeks.

.
anyway,
lots of things are happening lately.
im saddened by whats going on,
its one of my worst nightmares.
i dont understand what is running through his mind.
dont he feel what th girls would feel?
dont he understand how she would feel?
dont he notice he's smearing all ties when this happens?
im just hopingwishingpraying fo a miracle to happen,
where something/somebody will just give him a smack to reality.
before its really too late.
its his own loved ones who'll be at loss.
HE himself is th one at most loss.
its reallyyyyy making me feel sad.
putting myself in th girls shoes, especially.
what happened to him?
he who was someone loving & fun,
suddenly seemed so heartless.
so very heartless.
.
dont he ever spare a thought about him and her?
the exemplary ones are right in front of his own eyes.
they are now all so worrieddd,
why aren't you thinking straight?
why are you keeping their minds so occupied with your stupid desires&problems?
which is like, super disturbinggg
not to just One, not to just Two, not to just Three,
but th whole entire tree!
dont he spare a thought about us?
how our perception and respect for him would be smeared too?
i really dont understand what's he thinking.
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE WAKE UP!
.
thinking of this whole shit makes me tear.
its reallyreallyyyreallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sadddd, youknow.
i cant imagine how things'll be like, when its too late.
only then, you'll realise?
only then, you'll repent?
whatthehell lah.
.
& at this point,
i really give my utmost respect to her,
and admire her,
fo all her strength and will,
after all th shit she's been through.

------------------------------------------------

okay hmm,
Kaknin's going off for studies in australia on th 13th Feb(if im not wrong),
omgdd, thats so so superrrrr soooon lahhh.
she'll only be back months later.
im gonna miss kakninnnnnnnnn,
nevertheless,
i wanna congratulate kaknin for going over!
she must be excited!
hahahaha,
i wish you allllll th best kaknin,
LOVE YOU ALWAYS.. <3
:'D
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.
:'

unsettled mind.

2010-01-15T16:59:00.011+08:00

Have I Been Shiok Sendiri All Along?
i start questioning.
I'm Afraid.

Did I just create false hope myself this time?

----*reupdated 16/01 lolll*----

nahhhhh, i dont think so.
hahahaha.

where's next!

2010-01-14T21:46:00.003+08:00

I JUST SUBMITTED MY JAE TINGYY!
omgomg hahahah.

.
okaay that explains it all.
about th whole Where's Next!
haha.
I TELL YOU SMTH.
MERIDIAN'S LIKE, ALMOST PERFECTTTT
seriousshit,
BUT!
it don't offer art as a subject.
annoying right.

.
btw,
i did consider applying Nautical Studies.
but my parents were totally against it.
and my bro told me that he got th same reactions when he was 17 too.
hahahaha.
.
Hmm anyway,
i had my first trainfire as a cadet officer today.
lol!
still amateur ah lolllllll.
but okaaaylah.
Farna & I had about less than 10 Bedok South Part C Boys.
haha, Kangzhi took th other half.
so it was fine.
Handling of SAR 21, Stripping/Assembling,
IA Drills, Loading/Unloading Weapon, ...
.
tmr first training as a cadet officer.
heh! we'll see how things go~~
I MISS MY SOULJAGIRLS~~
I WONDER HOW TH NEW PART As WILL BE LIKE!
hahahaha lol!
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

HAPPY!!!!!!!!

2010-01-12T22:48:00.024+08:00

okay hi!
omgomg,
L1R5 12 - 2 -2 = 8.
L1R4 9 (can minus bonus points anot eh? lol)
& 4As! ^^

*click!*
hahahaha,
BASICALLY I WAS LIKE VERYVERY HAPPY YESTERDAY!
ALHAMDULLILLAHHHHH!!
HAHAHHAHAHA.
OKAAY. maintain.
& yes i did cry. :x
at th look of my parents faces.
when i havent even burst to them my results. -.-
hahaha, they were in th hall too..
after collecting th necessaries from Mr Low & Miss Chia,
i straight away rush to my parents,
no left or right.
hahaha.
I LOVE THEM.
okaaaaaaaaaaaay, i very happyyyyyyyyyy!!
then after that, we went to my grandparents'!
they were happy tooooo!
met wit abgnash and alllll..
we are all very happy!
hahahaha.
congratz to all myyy friends!
and especially Abang Nash & Danial
& Sarah & Nisa & Iqqa & Nadia & Sya & Farna & Ikaa & Yana & Zaf & JW & 4e5!!
& ALL MY FRIENDS!!
and thanks for all th wishings, friends & family..
and TEACHERS!!

.
.MR LOW & MISS CHIA
FOR ALL YOUR KINDNESS & SUPPORT!!
.ENGLISH - MRS SUM!
honestly i didnt know i could get an a2. she targetted at b4 or b3 fo me lol -.-
neverthless, THANKYOU!
.E/AMATHS - MISS HO WEI WEI!
well these are my best subjects~~
THANKYOUFOR YOUR GUIDENCE&PATIENCE MISS HO!
esply Amaths where i started off with single digits & failures!!
.PHYSICS - MDM MARIAM!
IM SO SO THANKFUL FO TH B3! THANKYOU MDM MARIAM!
.CHEMISTRY - MRS CHUA!
for th sincerity and motherly love throughout th 2 years,
thankyou mrs chua!
.SS/GEOG - MISS FANG & MDM MARIAMAH!
(& th SS tchers which kept changing in sec 3 lol)
B3!! im so so happyyyy fo this, coz i know i usually failed either one elective.
if passed, it'd be a c5 or c6!
but i now passed! with a b3!!
thankyou miss fang & mdm mariamah!
.Malay/HML - CIKGU ZUBAIDAH & CIKGU MANSO!
thankyou cikgu zubaidah & cikgu manso!!
.
its sad(& annoying) that my phone hadta pass away in th midst of all this happiness!
*i receive all th smses without knowing who. and hadta ask them th same qn over & over!*
.
i was at NYP openhouse.
when i dropped my phone.
i thot it was just another drop.
so i just pick up and keep inside my bag.
without even checking.
later i took it out,
"Insert SIM Card"
!!
i took out th batt, sim card, put in back..
"Insert SIM Card"
!!!
again.
"Insert SIM Card"
!!!!!!
SO SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
MY SONY ERICSSON K770i HAD BEEN THROUGH THICK & THIN WITH ME.
SINCE FEB 2008.
i love you phoney.
rest in peace okay.
he's in a comma.
im not sure if he can be revived or smth.
so yeah.
fo th moment, gotta thank sarah,
she lent me her spare phone.
which th keypads are alil' hard.
so im adapting.
hahahaha,
PS: if you call me,
i can hear you, but you cant hear me.
so yeah.
you can still call me and say
Help! Help!
:)
hahaha.
.
ohyes,
where's next,
im still deciding.
i wanted meridian,
but meridian dont offer art.
i thot of nyjc,
tho its alil further,
its finee, but dont have rockclimbing cca haha.
i think its cool. hahaha.
maybe tpjc or srjc.
or the many poly media-related/animation-related courses that im super interested in.
BOTTOMLINE: STILL DECIDING.
.
OH OH,
AND I THANK KAKAKKOOS,
FOR DEDICATING HER FB STATUS TO ME.
:):)
!! <3>

WELCOME 2010!

2010-01-01T17:46:00.004+08:00

HELLO 2010!!
im so so exciteddd,
fo th awesome things that WILL take place this year!
.
many things im hoping to achieveee..
haha, but i guess i wont state everything here lol.
:D:D
one of th important ones,
I WANNA GO FOR AIRBORNE COURSE.
seriousshit!
i wanna flyyy. LOL!
not literally, but you get what i mean anyway.
hehhh.
hopefully i get to go!
must train up, hahaha..
.
PS: i think i ♥ somebadeyyyy.
hehhehhehhh!
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE!

2009 last post. ;'D

2009-12-31T17:24:00.011+08:00

2009 is ending oh so so sooon!
looking forward to 2010!!
so many things yet to discoverrrr & find outt..
LIKE OUR O LEVEL RESULTS WHICH SEEMS TO BE TAKING FOREVERRRR! -.-
th anxiety is killing me.
but then again,
scary lahhhh.
but then again,
cepaaaaaaaaaaaaaat lah you old folks marking our papers!
DOUBLE UP! hahahahaha.
.
So anyway,
about 2009
so many things happened!
i learnt many things!
be it school, ncc, chionging for o levels like crazy pig.
hahahaha..
im gonna miss lotsa stuff..
ima miss 4e5!!
ima miss being an NCC cadet & NCO.
ima miss going to macs almost everynight studying.. (LOL)
ima miss th tiredness & laziness of climbing th stairs to th 4th floor in school every morning..
ima miss listening to Mr Ow and his announcements every morning..
ima miss walking/rushing for 291 or 3 to school, every morning..
oh! ima miss th time when 4e5 being quarantined due to h1n1! HAHA.
ahhhh, ima miss PASIR RIS SECONDARY!!
ima miss lotsa stuff & people!
.
Here's some of th 2009 memories!
My birthday!
best surprise everrrrr, during part A camp!!
highest rank attained as a cadet. LOL.
proud to be a Part A PC!
& sya's brownies which was so heavenly!
tastes as good as it looks! ^^
cousins outing in april!
we watched shinjuku incident!
aww happy times!

AWWWW, MY AWESOMIZERS!
PRSS FSD TEAM WOOHOO!

AND HARI RAYE 2009!
greeeeeeen, i like!
and ofcourse th 2nd days..
celebration was like as good as 2 days only, this year..
then it was back to studies! hahahaha..
oh, and then Olevel's came!
my number is 0101! nice righttttt!
and i sat right at the backkkkk!
then o levels was over,
PROM NITE!!

THEN it was all ncc!

CADET OFFICER COURSE!

then PRSS NCC G BBQ~

then th EAST DISTRICT & BOOMZ chalet & bbq!

then dayouts!

too bad, not all that we took photos..

LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE!
FO TH LAST TIME IN 2009!
.
2010 HERE I COMEEEEE!~

BOOKS.

2009-12-27T13:03:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION,
MY DEAR JUNIORS!
I STILL HAVE BOOKS THAT'RE YET TO BE GIVEN AWAY..
DO YOU NEED ANY? :D:D

Subjects i took..

Pure Physics
Pure Chemistry
Amaths
Emaths
English
Malay
Higher Malay
Combined Humans (SS & Geography)

.
Pleaseplease approach me,
cause i mite have things you might need.
hehhehh.
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

2009 2ND LAST POST. ;D

2009-12-25T23:57:00.001+08:00

ITS BEEN CENTURIES SINCE I BLOGGED.
I KNOW!
hahahaha.
.
so hows life?
hmm...
olvl was alrite. i guess.
hari raya was great.
recent happening,
COC!
Cadet Officer Course.
its greaaaaaat!
so many things happened.
i damn lazy to story tell.
hahaha.
photos will do th talking.
buttttt,
not now.
hehhh.
.
today had movie marathon wit iqqaa & syazaaa
1) When a stranger calls
2) Final destination 1
3) House bunny
4) Apocalypto
had a greaaaaaaaaaaat time mannnn!
.
i know my posts are boring at th moment.
but heck,
hahahaa,
wait till next round i rajen.
heh
.
ANYWAY!
im anxious fo results.
im anxious fo 2010 to come.
im looking foward to many things.
.
lotsa plans made fo our ncc unit.
ytd i joined getari's trg..
as much as i wanna be a member,
mummy doesnt like it.
so idk.
hahaha,
wells.
i'll update another timeeee.
.
LOVE,
FAIZAH BONNIE!

2009-09-18T14:47:00.001+08:00

HELLO!
i longed to blogggg.
.
its likeee, 4e5 teachers day dance!
hotstuff!
haahahaha!
http://www.facebook.com/zazabon?ref=profile#/video/video.php?v=123689403903
so watch!
.
hari raye's tmr's tmr!
i bought baju raye alr!
LIMEGREEEEEN!
superniceeee!
.
i wish i could spend more time uploading photos and all!
hahaha.
unfortunately!
hahah,
.
love,
FAIZAHBONNIE!

random photos, bongkar from phoneeee.

2009-08-19T18:15:00.002+08:00

2009-08-10T22:13:00.006+08:00

just as i was moving to a new chapter

i found some pages that i didnt know was missing

just that few lines could change my perception of a character

what ive believed, has all along been somewhat wrong and misleading.

some photos!

we share a big heart!

iqqa & meee!

mee, sherms & iqqa!

us agaiiin!

iqqa, mee, alfian & farid!

& more shots~
hahaha, i like farid's poseee above! ^^ hahahaha.

&& so below is shahrul, shermin, farid & meeee.

OKAY GO!
.
love,
~FAIZAH BONNIE.

national day celebs.

2009-08-10T02:01:00.003+08:00

SO MANY THINGS HAS HAPPENED!
HAPPY BELATED BDAY SINGAPORE!
today i watched movie after movie.
i did a lil' hmwk, heh.
ytd, i went gym fo th first time (lol) with hamzi, haikel, farah fir, ruzaini, & some others.
hahahaha.
i think it was funnn.
like playing at playground!
except tht we hafta pay 1.50, lol!
.
MAIN HIGHLIGHT OF TH WEEK: PRSS NATIONAL DAY CELEBS!
it was awesomeeeeeeeee!
AWESOMIZERS was th first item.
we've been rehearsing over & over,
with a few hiccups along th way,
plus we got qamarul to be part of us! ^^
but all in all, their performance was PERFECT, id say!
i watched from backstage.
so proud of you ppl! ;D
then when finish, help th th awesomizer girls to change into sexy mamas!
i was part of it, lol!
so we catwalked in,
*GETARAN JIWAAA*
then!
1 2 3 4, uno dos tres quartro!
*we danced!*
hahahaha.
so funnnn, i enjoyedddd.
thou i was like terselit at one corner,
im not sure if ppl noticed my existence anyway,
but i dont care, i had fun anyway.
when i got time, i post pics!
IT WAS LIKE REALLY AWESOME LAH!
after that,
went airport wit mum & sis, & met up wit my aunts family there.
we ate fish & co. hahah, my first time as well, heheeh.
VERY NICE!
.
on wednesday,
was Cross Country @ Pasir Ris Park.
i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel gooooooooooood!
i got 7th!!
yeayyyyk, get medal.
6th was NANO! ^^
8th was HAZIRAH! ^^
so happy, like consecutively ncc ppl.
hahaha, happy!
.
besides these recent events,
schools finee.
mugging, every now and then.
not mugging recently,
homework feels neverending!
so im struggling to finish homework!
MBEKS!
.
PRELIMS SO SOON.
.
OHYES,
the most recent commontest,
I FINALLY PASSED COMBINED HUMANS.
like from f9/d7, now i got b4!
like YAY!
thou i kno its like common test only,
but, hopefully this is progress!
.
but i failed chem pulak.
dah pass phy & CH, chem ngn EL pulak fail.
like,
wth, i failed englishhhhh?
how cannnn.
this dont happen man.
.
hmmm.
i shall stop here.
selamats.
.
PS: I KNO IVE BEEN LAZY TO ENTER BLOGGER.
SINCE I DONT GO ONLINE AS OFTEN, AND WHEN I DO,
I SPEND TIME ON FACEBOOK. :D:D:D

2009-06-18T16:29:00.003+08:00

last sunday!
i went out wit sarah & nisa.
but never take any photos.
hahahaha, wasted rightttt.
we went escape!
initially just wanted go bowling.
skali, we on th waiting list like, never progress..
so then,
since sarah had th $100 voucher(hehheh~),
we went escape!
so fun!
before that we ate + drank at mcd + mccafe.
hahaha.
omglah,
i loveeee sarah!
i loveeee nisa!
.
then sunday night,
i sleepover at Opah's.
then monday whole day there too.
i wanted go jogging @ reservoir.
but no shoes.
i called home, who knows my mum comin over, nope.
then, called mat nasreq, he said see how,
but kinda obvious its a no.
then ika & yana also not at home, i wanna borrow shoes.
they live nearby you see.
so.
i was annoyed fo not having shoes.
hahaha.
so at about 5 or 6, i went home.
.
tuesday,
i fulfilled my own desire,
since i was from home,
i went jogging.
but i just felt like jogging at reservoir.
like got measurement.
if not,
ive been jogging like in th neighbourhood,
start from my house(ngee ann sec area), then pass by east spring primary thr,
east spring sec, then the esso, nisa's house area there(497G),
then dunman sec, then to jiawen's house(493D) there.
so anyway,
i think i very slow already.
4.3km(reservoir perimeter) i took 33mins. :O
.
friday,
this friday,
abang says we shall go night jogging.
where dont know yet.
.
on wed had chem practical.
so i went school.
.
thursday,
oh thats today right.
last night abang & me stayed up till 3,
to watch mighty ducks 1 & 2.
hahahah movie marathon, it was free on mio.
so we grabbed opportunity.
LOL.
.
btw,
yesterday,
i was like clearing up my old drawer & cupboard.
not th clothes one,
its like all my rubbish treasures throughout the years!
like since kindergarten.
there's this autograph book(at such a young age, it was my sis who taught me),
and look at th horrible handwriting,
but so cuteeee.
and at PPIS(my kindergrten), i had best friends; iklil naqiyah, seri & huda.
which ive totally lost contact with them.
thou on th book got their home number,
even if they havent move house,
it'd be so weird if i suddenly call!
LOL!
they probbly forgotten me alr.
hahahaaha.
in th same book,
i got my opah(granny) & atok(granpa),
my mum, dad, uncle, aunts to write on it.
at this moment,
ee so paisey, they look at th horrible childish writings & all.
hahahahah!
serious man.
andand,
i got some friends who wrote at primary 1 & 2, etc.
maybe i should show them what they had written, these days.
tht'd be so funny.
somemore got jiawen & gang,
the whole disney girls influence!
hahahahahahahaahah.
RIGHT JIA WEN?
dyou rmb what was jazzy bytes? lol!
.
then,
i also found my stamps collection! (hahah!)
okaay, my mum help me.
actually got alot you know,
manymany countries have.
.
my stickers album, i gave em away already i think.
somemore,
i found my primary school diaries & journals.
omggggg. so kentallllllllll.
hahahahahha!
.
*OKAY KAKAK JUST SPRAYED PERFUME,
AND GAHHHHHHH!
THE SMELL SO STRONG!*
aiyoks.
.
then there was this "poem book" i had made in primary school.
omg, so nonsense lah my poems!
serious!
like ah?
-.-
.
i also found my old compos & karangans,
i read some of them.
i look at my grammar mistakes & vocab & all,
omg, i feel so stupid last time.
hahahahaha. -.-
but my stories mostly are like funnyfunny one.
hahahaha!
.
now i am feeling bored.
& tired.
i waiting fo maghrib.
i thirsteyyy.
.
i think i shall do some service to th class blog.
hahaha.
okay go!
.
love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

superteen!

2009-06-08T00:05:00.005+08:00

what you say is what you get.
what you see is what you get.
.

i am a superteen.
i will be a millionaire. by 30.
i will be a graphic designer. [now ive finally finalised what i want to be.]
plus an entrepreneur.
i will get into university. (yet to be specified)
i will get into a JC. (yet to be specified)
7As will be mine, this Os.
.
only after im a millionaire,
then i'll be able to do th following;

go africa, help th starving.
go to the LDCs, help th poor.
i might be able to set up hospital or charity homes there.
i can then, experience things i wanna experience:
bungee jumping
scuba diving
sky diving
parachuting
sailing
whatever you name it, i wanna try!
i can then bring my parents travel? - if they want to. i should think that they want, right?
hahaha, perhaps to egypt & greece! okay see how.

and since i got money, after helping th poor & and all,

i shall buy a penthouse.
andand, a orange/black mustang!

oh yeah, i used to say i wanted to undergo lasik.
summore graphic designer,
confirm my degree would get higher. D:
ohwells.

i'll succeed.
i'll excel.
i'll make my parents proud.
i love them so muchhhhhh!
i wanna make them feel happy and satisfied after struggled raising me up..
really!
what Ernest said during th "touching session",
*where it flooded in th AVA room, lol!*
i feel that it really touch our hearts,
and make us all realise, how much our parents love us.
how much they're sacrificing fo us.
how much hope they have in us.
and what/how have we been repaying them.
what we've done, is just simply,
NOT ENOUGH.
it made us tear.
the boys cried.
the girls cried.
I cried.
we all cried.
like, seriously,
i cried until like sedu-sedan (like hiccup kinda cry)
at that moment in time,
i sweared in my heart that i wanna treat my parents the best that i can.
and that was yesterday, 060609.
today, 070609; the closing ceremony.
parents were around this time.
and waaw.
we teared again.
but not as bad as yesterday.
i hugged my mum, my dad,
mdm mariam,
miss ho,
mrs chua,
miss fang,
& miss chia.
i feel th support.
from all these important people.
.
i wish i can hug God.
thank you Allah, for all th love ive felt.
please give me th strength,
let me have the strength to persevere,
and work so so so hard,
fo this major exam.
for i know,
its gonna effect my life after that,
and so, its gonna be oh so worth ittt.
life wil neverr e-e-e-eeverrrr, be. the same... again!
.
just believe.
.
as long as God permits,
this is a promise ive made,
especially to myself.
look in th mirror,
thats th most important person in your life - what i was just taught.
tho i thot my mum was the most impt, besides my dad,
my grandad, my grandmum.
.
lastly,
its not about your looks,
its about how you carry yourself.
.

love,
NUR FAIZAH BINTI ABDUL JA'AFFAR.

last days.

2009-05-30T19:31:00.005+08:00

Last saturday,
i went sentosa.
it was like sudden,
hahaha, my uncle+aunt+cousins,
invited me along to join em.
hehhehe, superrrr funn!
unfortunately not many photos were taken.
hahaha,
wimme, hardly any.
my cousins phone, got a few lah.
haha.
.
it was at nite, so its dark. lol heh!
weeee took th skyline tingy.
its like cable car but only the seat.
not covered.
.
this pic,
is kaknin's hands,
they were like,
nervous. LOL!
.
then we had the cineblast.
hahahaha it was like, funneyyy.
hahaha.
xD
.
my report slip, anyway.
hahahaha.
.
i got praise award as well.
hehhehhe. LOL!
.
ON THURSDAY,
i ended at 1215.
iqqa asked me to wait fo her then we go home tgr.
she end at 1.
so i killed time in sch wit farah fir.
hahaha
*finally i got broken strings!* xD
thenthen,
at 1245 like dat,
mummy called.
she asked me to meet her at tamp int.
she was from opah's house @ bedok reservoir.
so in the end, i dint meet iqqa. haha.
we went isetan.
mummy was looking fo highheels.
want to go jempotan, no more shoes.
hahaha,
so yeah she was looking,
thenthen!
she said i should fine a pair too.
i dont have highheels anymore too.
hahaha.
then, i saw this striking pink shoe.
it was soooo nice!
skali no size. got 36, 38, no 37. :O
wasted.
then i found another shoe.
greeen, niceeee!

i think its pretty.
alll th better, this year my family wearing green fo hari raya.
hahhaa.
okaay coool.
so yeah!
skali my makwan called,
makwan: Long, kau kat mane?
mak: aku kat isetan..
makwan: ah, kau kat isetan? aku pon kat isetan! kau kat mane?
mak: ah? ehhh? hahahah, aku kat level 1.
makwan: ehhh? hahahaa, aku kat level 2.
.
and so, makwan joined us!
hahahaha
happy right, my family.
so coincidence one.
so then,
we ate long john.
then, i was like superrr fulll.
makwan wanted to look fo assesment books fo aji & abg nash.
so, we went popular.
spent a long time there.
then, i found 2 books.
hahahaha, long time i never buy/read any new books.
th last time was like 5 books about witches.
so umm, now again(witches.)
this is the first time after so long.
im so attracted to both that,
my mum told me to pick only one,
i cannot make up my mindddddd.
FICKLE.
so finally we bought both.
hahaha.
.
i think im kinda witchy man.
hahaha, idk why tho.
i really like th whole witch ideas & stories.
maybe one day i could be one.
hahaha! cool eh.
.
this book isnt about witched tho,
but its like so pretty, btw.
orangeeee the whole book!
coooool righttttttttt.

love,

FAIZAH BONNIE.

*random happy chemicals.*

2009-05-29T20:43:00.005+08:00

hello.
tday's supposedly last day of school.
but,
o levels mahh,
june study camp.
so school's extended to 2 weeeks.
i rili rili wanna berjuangggg,
until after O's can enjoy!
:D
oh btw,
speaking of after o's,
i think i wanna join kakak's getari.
for funn & experience :D:D
&& after o's i wanna find some part time job.
i think i'll ajak abg nash to find job witmee.
hahaha.
so thats's 2 things. :D
.
so yup, got my report book.
in report slip,
my chem from 49.5 they round off!
YAY! so i pass with a 50!
hahaha. sweesweee.
L1R4 20. D:
L1R5 29. O:
hahaha, combined humans f9. so yehhh.
horribleee, man.
i really need to work harderrrr!
.
love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.
.
CUTE RIGHT MY PARENTS!
hahaha..

photoscaptions.photoscaptions.

2009-05-26T14:08:00.011+08:00

*HELLO, I LOVE YOU.* to whoever you are. :]
.

like omg im blogging again!

so many things i wanted to say.

but i seem to foget many things already -.-

HENCE! i shall post up some photos first.

that's been rotting in my phone.

hahahah. :D:D

Firstly, just threw my black shoes away.

Last Sunday. LOL.

:D:D

looooook at th condition.

it survived witmeee till th end!

hahahaha!

AND TH REPLACEMENT!

so whiteeeeeeeee rightttttttt?

I LIKEEEEEEEEE~

then my fingers so itchy ready,

must doodle.

hahahaha -.-

left. heh!

right. hehhh!

...

OKAY,

then this was last Monday,

was having no schooool, so i spent my day at Opah's!

and then my Dear Kakkie & I cooked MAGGI.

oh yay.

happiness!

then this!

hahaha, i likeeee!

thou maybe th vase look a lil' retardified. lol.

this is behind my room door.

hahahaa, i was like so stressed before chemistry paper.

it was like, i know i was failing.

but i studied okay.

I STUDIED.

at th end of it, i got 49.5.

?!? half more markkkkkkkk. =.=

tsk.

perhaps i did not have enuf practice.

OKAY ima tell you alllll my results.

self explanatory.

then these!

are just happy photos.

THE CLOUDS SO PRETTAYEEE!

i think im in love wit them.

they're like my hp wallpaper right now.

hahahah.

another bunch of pretty clouds.

i walk through this almost everyday,

provided that i go home by 291.

idk whye,

i think i just like th look of it.

peaceful-ish.

can associate it wit like "the light at th end of th tunnel" kinda thing.

thou i kno its not a tunnel.

but anything lah!

hahaha, i just like th look anyway.

HEH.

and this,

was like weeeeeeeeks ago.

=.=

and this is even weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks before that.

LOL.

i still like it thou.

:D:D

anyway,

i've been surveying poly schools & courses.

people have been asking me where i wanna head after O's.

i couldnt give an answer.

NOW,

i tell you my answer.

its true, i now admit i want to aim fo JC.

but i couldnt answer to people bcoz i wasnt confident enough to say "I wanna go JC."

people might be thinking like,

"elehhh, standard like that got dream wanna go jc. -.-"

aiyok, tht kinda thing lah.

and looking at my MYE, i havent reach my ideal results.

and so!

i really need to come out wit a fallback.

thou i am still aiming fo JC.

*i'll post my plans smtime soon.* :D:D

love,

~zazabon.

2009-05-08T20:50:00.005+08:00

random, i found these photos!
ahahahaha.
.
pengawals!
.
father & daughter playing table tennis, or is this called pingpong?
hahaha, idk~~
.
ANYWAY, HELLO!
know ive not been updating.
been either with mugging,
or when im online, i go facebook!
hahaha.
whoops sorry bloggie. :D:D:D
i still love you.
.
crushymushy shouldnt be a trouble now.
i think th whole thing is childish? it.is.called.shioooook.sendiri. -.-
ive come to a decision(& prayed),
that if i happen to fall fo anyone or have a crush on him,
if he's not gonna be my husband in future,
then please help me stop.
there's other important things.
.
i think alot nowadays.
and talk less.
im a much less fun person now. frankly speaking.
i dont find it fun either.
how i wish i can dont be like this.
anyway, this is just how i am at th moment.
accept me okay.
hopefully i'll evolve again sometime later.
like jean grey into phoenix!
hokaaayy,
maybe not. phoenix is like cannot be controlled alr.
hahah.
im afraid of being left. okay dots.
.
anyway, ive been praying alot lately.
like, telling Him all my wishes, hopes, etc.
and there's a few happenings that's giving me hints,
thats He's listening.
im seriously so thankful.
.
exams is worrying.
.
now new addiction.

Seperti bintang dilangit
Begitu cinta kita
Tak kan pernah binasa
Meski terhapus masa

Terima kasih tuhan
Kautelah sempurnakan
Telah engkau ciptakan
Dia untuk diriku

Aku bukan pujangga
Yang pandai rangkai kata
Yang ku punya hanyalah
Hanya segenggam cinta

Saat kita melaju diatas dua roda
Genggam erat pundakku saat meninggalkan mu

**Lupakan aku bila itu terbaik untuk mu
Jangan pernah kau tanyakan cinta dan ketulusan
Yang kau pun tak punya

Biarlah Aku akan pergi
Tinggalkan semua
Cinta ini selamanya

Patahkanlah sayapku
Saat ku mencoba
Berpaling dari kasih dan sayangmu
Maka bunuhlah aku
Bila aku mencoba berpaling dan mencari penggantimu

Seperti bintang dilangit
Begitu cinta kita
Tak kan pernah ternoda
Meski terhapus masa

Terima kasih tuhan
Kautelah sempurnakan
Telah engkau ciptakan
Dia untuk diriku

**

i understand th lyrics,
its about being so thankful that my love is perfect, like that.
only th part in orange,
it seems to contradict th rest?
or maybe th song is sarcasm?
hahaha still trying to figure!
.
i still like nightcrawler~
i think he's got th coolest power!
lol~
i watched xmen origins wit abang & kakak last sat.
COOLSTUFF. i likeeeeeeee.
like xmen123 all whooh.
.
okay i dont feel like talking anymore.
.
love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

.
OH YES I BOUGHT WHITE SHOES ALR!
YAYYYY!

P.O.P!

2009-04-24T21:13:00.007+08:00

hahha,
.
go see more!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=72714&id=842373717&l=1db124a3ca
.

today was supercalifragilisticexpieladocious!
ive found th word to describe my whole years in ncc.
supercalifragilisticexpieladocious!
if youuu dont know where it came froom, go watch MARY POPPINS!
OKAAY.
.
basically,
todaaaay was our P.O.P.
my almost 4 years in ncc..
like th word, its like a whole mix of feeeelings!
mostly wonderfullllll!
its likeeee really experience-fulllll!
i love ncc. i love ncc. i love ncc.
i wanna come back as clt.
hurh.
.
and i love ncc,
ALOTTTTTTTT.
time to take a break. wit carlsberg! lol, okay no.
O LEVEL!
you know, my target now is like atleast 5As!!!
and knowing meeee,
ive got alottt to buck up on. (!!) really mann!
.
back about today,
atfirst, since last night was kinda nonsense,
so unprepared lah dunno what lah.
anything related wit pre-today,
was just annoying.
plus i didnt know why iqqa was like
tak payah tak payah.
hahaha grrr.
i dont know what corrupted her mindd.
-.-
but finally, ALL ke yi lah.
not perfect either, i must admit.
just so happen, we're like space+time constraint/clash,
with npcc,
so unfortunately,
ncc hadta waiiit~
hahaha.
so anyway,
th AVA session.
alotttttttttt of technical cockups.
LOL.
ohwells, sorry loh, but dont complain,
unless you did rendered help!
hahaha.
.
im so tiredddd right now.
but just now was like really touchinggg moments!
my part As sanggg, and it made me cryyyyyyyy,,
omggg, i soooo didnt want to!
but cant help it.
i loveee youuuu ppls!
and ira's voice soooo th matching wit th song/mood/aircon.
all the moreee,
hahaha.
andand part C superrrrr, melalakkk session!
omg.
hahahah.
mannnn, ilygirlllls!
then, part b also,
mannnn, i loveee my souljaaagirlsss!
<3<3
man, no word can help me describe, honestly.
likeee, i criedd you kno! gosh.
.
youknow.
sometimes i feel dumb.
becoz in th presence of C,
i like paisehhh, like kekok,
likeee, whaaat is wrong wit meee mann.
hah idk.
i think th more i have a crush wit somebody,
th more i feel segan towards him,
and th more i feel paiseh in his presence,
and th more i'll talk less,
and th more i'll not maintain eyecontact.
unless, he talks to me too.
okay wait,
he does,
just tht like, im just not able to be myselfff.
i think i always face this kinda problem. -.-
i think problem is solved in two ways
1. after a confession,
2. after i get over it/him.
=.=
.
see!
TH THING IS,
i think this whole issue is very mind consuming,
very th troubling my mind leh.
and hence,
i neeeeedta stop crushinggg lah dey!
i neeeeedta continue build up th semangatness to study&study&study,
even if until i become like freak like that, i dont care!
so long i can really do well for o's,
im doing my parents proud.
&my ownself too!
THEREFORE,
i should erase my crush away.
investing high hopes will make you fall from a greater height.
yeah mannnn.
i like th phrase. idk why.
.
NOW ITS ALL ABOUT STUDIES.
studies!studies!studies!
only that'll determine myyyy future.
ncc down.
council downing.
mushyhushytingys to be down.
distraction no.1: INTERNET, is under control.
somehow. haha.
.
I WILL ACE SS for mye!
haha.
ace it.
ace it!
yeah, ace it!
i likeee that.
LOL.
okaaaaay,
should go off now.
wanna spend quality time wit my bro watching dvd!
hahahaha.
.
love,
~zazabon.
.
you know,
i think i shouldnt spend so much time blogging about myself next time.
you people're probably bored of it already.
plus,
i know,
the world does not revolve around me..
the world does not revolve around you either..
while we're happily ficklemindedly, troubled by th fact we cant pick what to eat.
there are oh sooo many people who dont even get to eat.
remember that.
.
gosh i wish i reallly can help.
at this age i mean.
i know i will, help when i have stable income in future.
i really wanna help ppl.
okay stop it.
saying does not work.
.
okay BYE!

excitement.

2009-04-11T16:05:00.005+08:00

YTD was exciting.
okay wait,
the whole morning - afternoon,
i was having superflu,
so that wasnt exciting at all.
THEN,
in th evening,
i suddenly felt that i should go cycling.
so then i did.
i thot like fo a while only,
6.30-7 maybe.
within tampines.
skali,
my bro decided to join mee.
at 7, we met up at TPJC area there.
and btw, my flu subside alr.
somehowwww, i think i just needed to exercise, and pooof my flu gone!
so, abang's presence = greater scale.
so where do we go?
"we go changi!"
hahahaha. basically,
we past by Pasir Ris and then Changi.
it was likeee challenging, lol.
uphill tiringggg!
but exciting~~
hahaha
never went cycling there beforeeee.
so yeahhh! I LIKE.
.
OHYA.
i omost got hit by a car.
seriously.
it was like so SIPI.
at a pedestrian crossing at Pasir Ris,
hard to describe by typing,
but its like,
all abang could do was like, "IJAAAAA!"
*so drama, lol*
by th time th car stop, & luckily i tilt my bike front tyre to th right,
the distance in between was like 5cm.
i stayed shock for 1-2 secs.
hahaha, then continued cycle.
then my bro make th tak-puas-hati remark to th driver.
LOL.
okaay, what an experience.
.
anddd i cant wait,
for us to get like,
lights on our bikes,
so we can go night cycling agaiiin,
without my parents nagging.
:D:D
.
love,
~zazabon.
.
ps: MY HP HAS BEEN A LIL' ROSAK TH PAST FEW DAYS.
SOMETIMES YOU MSG ME,
I RECEIVE IT HOURS LATERRRR.
& SOMETIMES YOU CALL ME,
IT'LL BE ENGAGE,
AND I'LL RECEIVE TH CALLERALERT, SOMETIME LATER.
so yeah.
sorry fo th inconvenience caused.
if there's anythg urgent,
call my home lah okay, friends. :D

power of love

2009-04-10T15:16:00.008+08:00

touching.
i teared watching this!
watch!
.

.
TOUCHINGRIGHT!
gosh.
it looks so powerfful!
Oh God.
.
anyway!
yesterday went to 57th POP!
feel so proud looking at SHIMA&TAUFIQ!
congratz Ma'am! congratz Sir!
hahaha.
that's it, i wanna join the 58th intake!
hahahah.
just imagine, abang is like42nd,
and if jadi, i'd be 58th or 59th!
abang is oldd, mann! LOL.
hahahaha.
.
btw!
after th parades and all,
the dinner,
the diff syndicates perform!
shima's & taufik's was like some hindi+crazycrazy dance!
damnnnn funny!
hahaha.
then, another syndicate,
do skit etcetc,
suddenly change song to "FallForYou"
and then th new Cadet Officers
were like coming down th stage,
i thot what, skali they were like with roses each.
we thot they gonna give their parents or smth,
and so they walked around, with th accompaniment ofthsong,
then suddenly, one of em approached me,
and i randomly got a real life rose!
yayyy. hahaha. thouidontknowyou,
shoshweeet!
hahaha.
okaaycool.
.
the rose.
.
feelingfeeling.
hahaha.
.
HOHO.
.
inii,
hahha.
i dont know whats our motive either.
hahaha.
.
PS:
sya baked me this brownieee for me last weeek!
awwww, nice rightttt?
IT WAS LIKE AS TASTY AS HOW IT LOOKS.
seriouslyyyy!
THANK YOU SYAAA!
.
love,
~zazabon.

youcam & shinjuku!

2009-04-05T11:33:00.016+08:00

OKAY.
when you're bored.
and you just realised kakak's lappy has a camera + facewarp-related-thingg,
this is what happens.
.
sememeks.
.
HAHAHA.
anjjj sia! eee.
.
a new character from shark tales or smth!
buroks~
HAHAHA.
.
random. heh.
.
pthhekkkk!
idk whats that supposed to mean either.
so yeah.
hahahaha.
.
retard.
.
CAHAYA NURRR!
lol.
.
like beetle juice!
-if you've watched that movie before.
damn irritaing!
my head look so fuzzy!
bzzt! bzzzt!
.
eyebrows so sad.
.
woooh,
angelina jolie lips!
HAHA.
.
okaaay, now videos.
some funny, some not.
so up to you lah hoh.
hahahha.
just watch and see.
i think the 2ND ONE MUST WATCH.
hahahah.
.
wth.
BUST YOUR WINDOWS part 1.
.
lol.
BUST YOUR WINDOWS part 2.
.
dotsssss.
CAMELIA. lol.
.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
okay pshht.
.
UP NEXT.
on friday,
after ncc,
i rushed homeee,
then my cousins went out!
initially it was just Kakak & Kaknin,
then th no. of people grow,
up to,
the first cucu[grandchild] - Abang
all the way to me, the 7th.
hehehh.
.
first, we met @ tamp interchange,
then had makan @ s11~~
^^
.
happy righttt.
haha.
.
then
we walked our way to TM.
we step like tourists.
talk foreignly.
like never come to tampines before.
HAHA lol.
.
and here's aBANG nashkoos,
striking a classic pose,
di bawah pohon yang rendang..
he was like soooo slumberrr, while we were like laughing our ass offfff.
hahahahah.
.
then!
TM.
bought tickets,
to watch SHINJUKU INCIDENT!
it was superrrrr goooood i tell you.
touchings plus violent.
i cried sia.
YOU SHOULD WATCH.

okay back to th story,,
.
so we waited fo 9.40 to comeeee.
at th open plaza.
.
and camwhored.
hahaha.
.
BOTTOMLINE:
I HAD FUN!
serious shitttt.
hahaha movie ended at about 12 i think.
.
SO CONCLUSION;

hehh.

:D:D
.

PS: i know my mouth looook soooo mee goreng!

ohwells.

so long i happy!

you happy!

we happy!

yayyyyy~

LOVE,

~zazabon.

PS: IM STILL ADDICTED TO MAFIA WARS ON FACEBOOK. sigh.

basket song addiction~

2009-03-26T18:57:00.010+08:00

New addiction.
the song sooo BASKETTTT!
yet so niceeeeee!
storyline mcm ... eh? lol.
.
andai engkau tidak membisu,
akan ia diungkap sebegini ...

Camelia maafkanlah aku
Karena ku tak bisa temani tidurmu
Camelia lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah lagi kau temui aku

Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku
Kau wanita yang tegar
Aku mohon lupakan aku

Sudahlah jangan menangis lagi
Ku rasa cukup sampai di sini
Mungkin di suatu saat nanti
Kau temui cinta yang sejati

Sudah cepat lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah ungkit masa lalu
Ku takut kekasihku pun tahu
Kau pernah menjadi simpananku

Camelia…

Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku

Camelia…
.
ANYWAY.
was sick today.
didnt go schooool.
went to collect ncc shirts.
FINALLY SETTLED.
my God. this is. satisfaction.
.
BACK TO HMWK!
BUBBYES!
.
love,
~zazabon.

march holidays!

2009-03-20T21:28:00.008+08:00

OKAAY!
i was veryyyyyyyyy happyyyyy.
vereh vereh!
serious man!
but now im alil panic.
but nehmyn,
i storytell the happiness first!
:D:D
.
MONDAY! 16 march.
met up wit some ncos,
to prepare th bunks for part a camp.
was supposed to go pasir ris park wit arif,
to recce amazing race venue,
but rained.
so then went off with hazirahhh,
to get th ncc shirt tingy ordered.
long story.
haha.
.
TUESDAY! 17 march.
PART A CAMP.
it was so busy-ish!
okay there were latecomers -.-
i was around in th morning up till 9.
9 -12 went for chemistry remedial.
i was like damnnnn sleepy at th first hour.
i think i did fell asleep for a few minutes. heh.
whoops.
but then i went toilet & wake myself up.
haha.
then i paid attention OKAY.
kinda. tried to. heh.
but at 1130 or so,
kc, syed, hazirah, syaza, hoibing went to th lab.
"gmorning cher, can we see faizah?"
YAY, KC SYED HAZIRAH SYAZA HB TO TH RESCUE! heh.
so i left class for a while.
coz i know whr the stations for amazing race supposed to be.
i went up to our bunks, to take some logistics - clues.
thenthen,
went down again,
for a mesyuarat.
we were having hiccups,
as you know, it was lack of manpowerrrr.
SO THEY KIDNAPPED ME ALONG. lol.
coz many of the ncos got DNT/ART/3D coursework.
so during that few hours,
we lack of manpower.
hmmm. thenthen,
i seek mrs chua permission to leave class. hehhhhhhh.
then i did.
went as advance party to pasir ris park.
haha.
okay did alot of walking.
the game scale was biggg,
from th new carpark all the way to th spiderwebb.
.
got one crisis,
the log team fogot to bring down chairs to be brought to the park by the cadets.
so umm.
the other ncos panicpanic abit.
must admit,
it was the advance team fault.
sorryyyy.
later the part a arrived,
etcetc, then th game started.
syaza then passed me a packet of fooood.
and so i ate.
was like damn hunggryyy.
.
then th game went on,
& i think i really nidta watchout on my phone usage.
D:
siap lah the next bill.
D:D:
echo won the first & the 2nd station.
not sure about th others.
i'd say th amazing race was tiringgg fo them!
haha.
.
anyway!
th affirmation was really looked forward to, for me.
coz my dad was the guest of honourrr.
hahaha, cooool or what!
haha.
abang & kakak & kaksitikoos came too.
then took some photos, haha.
heh.
action!
happyhappy peopleeee.
arrival of GOH.
speech.
pledge heh.
follow me!
kakak, meee, kaksitikoos!
hehhehhh.
daddy, meee, mummy~
and ayah lighted th campfire too!
.
nightwalk was umm. heh. stories were toldddd.
which i think it shudnt have been told.
a couple of things happened.
as expected.
but im reallyreally thankfullll,
that i cant see or feeel it.
hish.
okay next topic.
.
a few mins to midnight,
i was with iqqa, haider, hoibing & the 'missing' boy, fazly,
behind the dentist place there.
haha.
i felt that the whole 'missing' prank was a waste of time.
but i went along with it anyway.
then,
iqqa countdown to midniteee,
i was likeeee okaaayokaaay no neeeed.
3.. 2.. 1.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
*iqqa squeezed the milo packet in my face*
lucky the drink like left abit onlyyyy.
but still!
my specs became milo-ish. -.-
hahaha, THANKS IQQA! {:
.
FINALLY, DEBRIEF TIME.
WEDNESDAY! 18 march.
~HIGHLIGHT OF THE HOLIDAY~
talktalktalk.
etcetcetc.
then end of debrief,
syaza came to us,
saying miss soh's reallyreally angry,
some cadet complained to her that they went fo amazing race without eating,
all that.
then ncos were told to move over to the outside general office,
to meet her.
and fauzi was like "we all over here, ask her to come here cannot ah?"
then syaza just shook her head.
i was like in an anything-state,
coz i was in stomachache,
my tummy was hungry, then i go drink cold milo.
so umm yeah, wanna see everything settled then i wanna go homeee!
so i foloed wit th flow,
as we walked to th general office,
suddenly luqman pulled me aside,
and talked about the amazing race halfway,
then arif cut in,
ARIF WAS SO CONVINCING.
he was like bullshitting me, asking like,
okay, who were the advanced party ncos?
then th ones in school?
i believed him coz he was the games i/c,
and i was the one who covered his duty for th amazing race.
i was likeee, *jaws wide opennn* are they like blaming meeee? D:
.
then syaza appeared again,
she was hurrying us, saying like, miss soh's really angry, so hurry!
so we also like speed up.
walked by th parade square way,
from afar then in the dark,
i can only see the others' sillhoutte,
they all seemed to be like crowding around, instead of fall in or smth.
& i was like, "miss soh nye maneee?"
then!
they started singing,
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU,..."
OhMyGod!
so touchinggggggggggg.
with them like guarding th cake in the center!
i was like so surpriseddddddddddddddd.
seriously mannnn.
THANK YOU ALL!
honestly speaking, its like the most memorableeeeee thinggg everrrr!
omg i love you guys lah.
very unexpecting you know.
i feeel so loved! (!!)
hahahaha yayyyyness.
.
then after that we carried th cake up to th bunk,
eat there.
then, i really hadta be going!
was going desaru in a few hours timeeee.
hahaha.
i love you my ncc kiddies!
so then i cycled home.
arif & shamin touching sia, say wanna send me back home since its so late.
hahaha.
but i wit bicycle, i hadta like convince em, like reallllyyy, im fineee.
hahaha.
okay, maybe i was a lil' freaked coz of th stories of experiences of those stuff. D:
and so!
i cycled home and play my hp music loudloud.
it was like 12++
hahahaha.
kental kan. ohwells. :D
.
sissy & brooo bought me slippers!
hehhehh.
orange~~
.
DESARU.
was coool.
if i storytell, very longwinded.
hahaha.
basically we did some stargazing!
i was amazed.
and i met little fireflies!
amazedddd.
there's many photos.
but this is th most significant one.
i witnessed to baby goats, sucking th mother brrrreastmilllk!
hahaha.
andand, the mother very baskettt,
she shittted while breastfeeeding!
omg righttttt.
i took this photo on time.
you zoom in, can see th mother's poop. hahaha.
.
and sarah gave me this surprise!
she actually drop by my house man,
while i went to desaru!
.
THURSDAY! 19 march.
chem class in th morning.
72 ftg sixth month!
but hachilah absent! D:D:
the 5 of us came over to my house.
and we watch 2 movies.
thou they're not newww.
but haha. we had funnn.
and yana brought us cookies!
hahaha.
yayy.
then,
4e5 BBQ!
thou me & ikaa were late.
we ate some foooood.
and got photophoto!
hahaha.
.
ohyes, zahid gave me this.
hahaha.
thanks mannnn!
.
- by kakakkoos.
thank youu! hehhhehh.
.
love,
~zazabon.

2009-03-09T20:28:00.003+08:00

TODAY,
oh wait.
i wanna post photos & videos of ytd's.
there was a relative of mine who got married.
it was so exciting,
especially when we wanna halang the guy's party from entering.
hahaha.
i'll upload another timee!
haha.
.
OKAY TODAY,
im in a happeeeyy moood.
thou i know i shouldnt be updating on a weekday today.
but im online to finish up th strengthsquest thingy.
so might as well!
hehhheh, btw, i think th questionnaire is quite accurate,
thou its damn maffan!
hahaha.
.
OKAY back about TODAY,
led mi sheikh width yew,
3 interesting things;;
1) my hand got caught wit th bunsen burner at chem lab!!
somehow, only my hand hair/fur(haha!), got burnt. then my hair turned gold.
like really! scarrrry. haha. but i never tell mrs chua. for a few hours, i felt like that scalded feeling like thatt. haha. but its fine by now.
2) my amaths get a2! omgomg! you dont know how hard it is fo ikaa & me to get a2! and we're both so happpyy. hahahahahahaha. kk. maintain.
3) my emaths get a1!! i topped the class seow! omg. like, first time in secondary school life i get highest for smth. except for art in sec 1 & 2. hahahaha.
HAPPY RIGHT.
.
but i failed physics!
aiyok.
i did study.
but i believe i didnt study enough.
haha, shall keep retrying lah hoh.
and thanks zul, fo being my a few-mins-tutor. {:
hahaha.
.
anyway,
i ended hml @ 4+
then it was raining, hm.
took bus. missed 291, so i took 3~
then i meet danial in th bus. again.
hahaha.
then,
i was suppose to meet zahid to get my TB back.
since he failed to meet me in th morning.. {:
hahaha.
THEN I WENT HOME.
atee nasi briyaniiii!
.
yay.
huuuhaaaaaa~
.
okaay me wanna do my hmwk.
BABAI!.
.
love,
~zazabon.
.
PS: this is for all of you,
especially kakkiekooos!
baabaa kambeng itam, ade tak bulu?
ye tuan, ye tuan, tige beg penoh!
satu untok tuan, satu untok puan,
satu untok budak yang tinggal di jalanan!
~~
heik!

bbq in schoool!

2009-03-07T14:42:00.007+08:00

HELLO.
BBQ YTD!
was happyingg~
.
and we all didnt see syed's hand.
{: ahahaha.
.
i was part of this team k!
hahah.
.
and if you notice, this face is in all the photos!
hahahaha, shima shima. xD
.
when i was in this picture,
syed couldnt snap the photooo. :((
.
IN THE NIGHT...
surpriseeeeeeeee!
HAPPY BELATED BDAY, FARAHCHAN & IKAABEE!
<3
FUN KAAAAN!
the cake was superr dee duperr!
cookies n cream~
favouritekoos!
xD
.
ah ah, touching kaan!
.
i was touched mann.
ILYOU AWESOME PEOPLE!
.
i thot that was all,
tapi ni lagi touching!
awww.
;))
.
"FAIZEH!"
hahaha.
.
i got personal cardd! ooh ooh, & cadbury choco!
waaaah~
.
i think the whole bbq in school idea was cool.
but sad that sabrina couldnt join us,
& shafiq and some of em hadta go off so early.
.
ooh ooh!
IQQA & YANA got their MSG ranks alreadyyy~ ^^
andand, IKAA got her 3SG rank alreadyy too!
like finally!
hahaha yayy! ;D
.
END OF YTD STORY!
.
ohh, this is th team!
again sabrina not inn! ://
.
ohh, haha,

i made this bracelet fo ikaaa.
got tinglingling~
hahahaha.
ily babeyy~
.
anyway,
i just watched hot n cold videoclip.
hahaha.
i think its funney.
haha.
.
kakak says she can sing this song.
somebody said ikaa could sing the song as well.
hahaha.
.
K BYE.
.

love,
~zazabon.

FSD!

2009-02-28T17:20:00.012+08:00

dear b,
im am soooooooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyyyyyy!
PASIR RIS SEC NCC UNIT, got 5th place in th east district freestyle drill competition!
out of about maybe 40 other units!
heeeheeeeeee.
im so proud of us!
well doneeeeee my dear part cs~~
good job suhaila!
good job farah!
good job shalihin!
good job luqman!
good job ameera!
good job amirah!
good job faridzuan!
good job shafiq!
good job danial!
good job alfian!
good job shahrul!
good job sabrina!
good job brahmawan!
good job johan!
good job hamzi!
and esp thanks to yana & hazirah & syed & arif & iswan & yubin & eddy!
AND JASPER[my classmate not from ncc], for helping me burn th cd, and fo willing to meet at 6.30 in th morn just to pass th cd,
:D:D:D:D
.
DESPITE,
having only 2 weeks exactly ONLY,
th fact that this is th first time,
none of us went fo th course,
not having a FSD Instructor,
other units are not able to help us,
we managed to pull throughhh!
ugh~
5th place yknw! 5th place!
im so happpyyyyy~~~~~~~~~~
.
although they announce the top 5,
only th top 3 get to go grand finals.
i think 5th is already an achievement for us.
:]
but SM said maybe we can be in th wildcard?
hahaha, sounds like american idol. xD
i didnt know about th wildcard part,
it wasnt in th AI.
maybe he came out wit it last minutee.
hahaha.
so yupp.
5th is alreadyy somethinggg.
hehee.
.

btw, this pic is taken last sat.

when we watch th central district.

we call it th teletubby hill otw to HQ.

haha, its behind NYP actually.

*i'll put th todayphotos, when i get em from ma'am!* :D:D

OKAY.
we all know that ive not been updating my blog. :x
its not that i dont want to.
i miss blogging.
as much as i wanna blog,
im as equally busy!
hehhehhh.
really lor.
firstly,
i dont touch th comp on weekdays no more.
then weekends,
when i go online usually got other stuff to do.
etcetc~
hehh!
.
OH YOU KNOW!
i lost my hp today. D:
i/we was/were like damnn hungryy, after the fsd competition from hq.
we took 72 back to tampines.
most of us didnt have proper solid breakfast.
hahaha. so umm.
at like 3 we were at kfc.
aft i bought my fooooood,
i put my tray down and like,
eh, whrs my phone? -.- *so faizahhh, mannn*
den i caress my pockets,
ransack my bag,
scanned my surroundings,
dont haveeeee!
ahhhhh.
i went to th counter, in case when i ordered,
left my phone thr.
but dont havee!
then i recallrecall.
last i used was on th bus.
called my mummm, rmb my batt very lowww.
so could it be in th bus?
somebody tried dialling,
but cannot get thru. THE MORE I WAS SCARED.
then suddenly, hamzi was like,
somebody found your phone.
he say you can take it from the interchange office.
HEAVY SIGH OF RELIEF!
i was like so panickyyy.
so we hurryhurry go.
then when i reached there,
wah, luckily retrieve back.
then, th staff told me he called my home.
*omg, my mum confirm panic one* -.-
true enuf,
i was told to call her.
and there sheeee goes,
there she goes agaiiin,
racing thru my brainn,
and i just cant contaiiin,
...
PHEW. so i got my phone back.
heh!
.
OKAY I WANNA TELL YOU ABOUT MY CA1 results!
first column - 2008 endyear grades
2nd column - this CA1.
.

i passed amaths! hehe.

chem & phy,

i feel fortunate to pass, whr only half th class passed. :]

i passed SS!(!!) but i failed geog. so combined, get 49/100. =.=

eek.

HML, suddenly this time round many failures leh. D:

ohwells.

can say that my grades improve lah hoh.

except english & hml. hahaha. :x

this is the notification slip.

for O levels.

hahaha.

all the details.

BTW.

today marks one year after the leap day event in my life last year.

haha.

so ytd,

my parents belanja my classmates donut empire.

she was especially touched with the 1000 papercranes that my dear 4e5 gave meee.

hahaha.

so yup.

i felt paisey, coz like as thou like dunnowat celebration like dat at th canteen.

.
like :x

buttttttt,

i really feel soooooo thankful to my parentsssss & my sister ofcoz.

becoz they love meeee.

hehhehhee.

OH, and i love my sister.

she helped me cleaned my bike. heheh.

look!

btw,

on 14 feb,

had th bahas wshop tingy by 4PM,

at school.

i think it was cool.

our mauduk was smth like 'sukarelawan di antara remaja hari ini semakin pudar' or smth.

and we're against it.

and my team won!

yayness!

ooh ooh, & i got pembahas terbaik! HEHE.

and you know,

my rugrats skateboard keychain after surviving since p5,

just broke/chipped off few days back. :(

i got it from makwan when they went australia in 2004.

hahaha.

i lovedddd rugrats back then.

hahaha.

it broke, as in, the key ring, dont work no more. :/

IVE JUST UPDATED! happeyyy? {: hahaha.

love,

~zazabon.

2009-02-08T01:20:00.005+08:00

my heart's turned soggy with my love for you,

just try touching and you'll have it torn,

im waiting for that light to quickly breakthrough,

to dry this up till th love's all gone.

hi!
heh.
.
im pissed off wit internet,
which is like so laaaaaaaaaaaaaag!
urgh.
.
do understand why ive not been updating.
haiyok.
.
i keep feeling soooo taubatness,
when i look at th geography textbook.
about th people in other parts of th world who're like suffering.
like,
we're enjoying a high standard of living.
yet we are still complaining.
sighh, manusia, manusiaaaa.
.
i love th world.
please dont end so soon.
mrs sum was talking about major disasters.
like hinting, about judgement day is coming!
D:
seriously man, im scared.
.
i wanted to post some pics,
but they're in th comp,
and my comp smth wrng wit th net so umm,
im tompanging my sis's lappy!
heh.
.
till i update soooon next weekend~
wish me luck fo my testssss.
OHYEA,
i got my phy test just now.
20/42 failed.
i wassss soooo thinking i failed.
but i passed!
hehheh, by 3 marks.
23/40!
:D:D HEH.
atleast okay hohh.
.
the other common tests so slowwwwwwww.
haiyok.
geog tmr.
amaths on thurs.
HM.
i shall gooo off.
.
love,
~zazabon.

2009-01-30T22:40:00.004+08:00

you know,
i think,
my blog really witnessed my life.
since p6 june.
how many years is thatt!
going four soon.
man, i should celebrate my blog birthday! hahaha.
lemme check, when did i start this blog.
* * * checking * * *
hmm, first post was in 24 june 2005.
hahaha.
im just assuming that thats the day i started this blog.
no change of link since then.
haha.
.
so i was saying, that th blog really witnessed my life.
i feel so thankful to have started blogging early.
haha, in future can still look back.
haha.
.
i picked out the rhymes that can be found in my blog fo th past 3years plus.
idk if there's more.
so far, thats all ive found.
and i labelled. {:

labels: RHYMES

look at th contradictory.
August 16, 2008 VS March 10, 2006

and pardon fo th ugly language used.
ugly as in very th not nice and th tense/grammar mistakes,
uhh, SEC ONES.
must understand. heh!
the language so th not nice man.
as you can see, got improvements.
hahaha.
.
i wanna continue write rhymes!
really.
just havent got time or idea or music to inspire me?
music as in instrumentals or smth.
haha heh!
hahaha, should practise more often eh.
hm.
,

- - - - - -
went HQ today.
with eddy.
for freestyle drill competition briefing.
& we know nuts.
gosh.
will update about this soon..
Tampines to Yio Chu Kang => bus 72, took about 1+++hr i think.
we sleeeeeep.
Yio Chu Kang Int to Amoy Quee Camp => walked.
we dragged our boooots.
reach, got a couple of ppl i know.
arrived at 4 like dat.
at 4.30 still havent start.
4.50 just end. =.=
so short. hm.
walked back to YCK inter.
bus 72 back to tamp..
we end up kebasing songs & songs.
hahaha.
reachd tamp int,
we took 28 back homeeee.
coz was still bluetoothing songs.
hahaha.
hm.
yay eddy!
.
love,
~zazabon.

cny celebs.

2009-01-28T15:27:00.003+08:00

i found this old photo in luqman's phone!
hahaha.
this is last year i think.
.
i made this for kakak's bday!
nice anottt?
heehehhh.
.
and today!
4e5's longest firecracker~
alotta effort has been made.
any more-than-6cm-gaps, was never intentional.
i love 4e5! <3<3
.
love,
~zazabon.

2009-01-25T19:36:00.002+08:00

when im of a stable age,
and of stable income,
i wanna go somewhere in africa.
like maybe in ethiopia or smth.
i wanna propose to some organizations,
& companies for sponsors,
and worldwide donations, etcetc
AND I WANNA BRING FOOOOOD,
to alll those people living there.
& medication.
& whatever i can help with.
hm.
.
that is, if i can do it lah.
haha, that'll be cool.
& i'll dragg alll my friends to help me in th mission.
hahaha.
.
anyway,
today's a happy day.
and i spent a couple of hours feelingfeeling like a bedok north kid.
hahahah, was wearing kaksitikoos bajuuu.
and i had goood time ~~
;D
.
i covered quite a number of hmwk today.
im a geek~
yay.
tmr will be doing so as well.
tues too probbly.
.
~happy chinese new year ppls.
.
love,
FAIZAH BONNIE.

TV Producer beb! {:

2009-01-24T13:16:00.005+08:00

th suitable occupation fo me is like,
a TV Producer!
hahahah, not bad eyyy?
.
yesterday during ace lessons,
we did this ecareer.sg thingyyy.
like manymany questionnaire kinda thing.
its suppose to be accurate.
hehhheh, so yep.
haha.
.
Occupations to Consider:

TV Producers

Costumed Actors/Performers

Artistes

Advertising Copywriters

Commercial Artists

Producer-Presenters

Hairstylists

Interior Designers

3D Animators

3D Modelers

Graphic Designers

Public Relations Officers

Fashion Designers

Jewellery Designers

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General Description:

TV Producers are needed for English and Chinese entertainment programmes (variety shows, magazine, children, sports and lifestyle programmes etc) as well as TV dramas. TV Producers conceptualise ideas and translate them into pictures and stories for television. Each TV programme has a story to tell. The Producer is responsible for the entire production of a programme from conceptualisation to directing camera crews and packaging the recorded materials for television.

Personal Qualities

Creative

Good writing and communication skills

Good organisational skills

People in this occupation conceptualise ideas and translate them into pictures and stories for television.
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so btw!
ive helped do up th class blog.
got th blogskin from blogskins,
then i customize.
alot.
as usual.
hahaha.
heh!
but i loikke, colourcolour.
hahahah.
http://for-efive.blogspot.com/
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now im addicted to this song!

nicee, yknwww!
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YOU CAN IGNORE TH FOLLOWING IF YOU CANT BE BOTHERED.
hahaha, i understand.

[Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb.
[Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm?

[WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come.
[DC:] Whitney, what's this about?

[WH:] I know he's leaving me for you.
[DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true?

[WH:]What is he tellin' you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?

[DC:] He told me that he loved me.
[WH:] I heard that.
[DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
[WH:] `cause I played that scene before.

[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

[DC:]
What you're saying could be true.
But how can I take advice from you?

[WH:]
I'm not hating,
But I wish the one before me
Would have warned me too babe.

[DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:] Uncover your ears, girl.
[DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:]But I know you hear me.
Maybe my reasons are wrong,But I know that you believe me.

[CHORUS]

[DC] It's your fault you didn't love him enough.

[WH:]
That's the problem.
I loved him too much.
And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.

[DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
[WH:] No you won't.
[DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
[WH:] He'll hurt you.
[DC:] He'll stay with me.
[WH:] He'll leave you.
[WH and DC:] For sure! For sure!

[CHORUS]

[DC:]
This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.
I'm the future, you're his past.

[WH:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.

[WH and DC:]
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.

[WH:] Enjoy it now.
[DC:] Enjoy just now.
[WH:] It won't last.[DC:] I know it will last.
[WH and DC:] Same script, different cast.
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love,
~zazabon.

2009-01-17T20:43:00.003+08:00

okay HELLO peeepoes!
.
long time no update.
know why? know why?
coz ive made it clear to meeself,
that ima use comp/lappy/internet, on weekends onlyyy!
hence, the lesser posts.
but TAG, OKAY PEOPLE.
hehheh.
.
so!
its been a busy week.
last sunday, iqqa went off for thunder warriorr,
and i miss herrr, we miss iqqaaaa!
D:
hm monday,
OLEVEL RESULTS!
my malay!
A2!
oral oso distinction.
so overall distinction!
hehheh.
congratz to th manymany other people.
but sya, dont be sad okay. ;]
.
tuesday,
we spoke to mr leong,
on ncc girls decision.
a brightbright 2009 waiting to shineee.
^^
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wednesday,
I WAS LATE FO SCH.
yknow,
nowadays, sch starts at 8.30 for wednesdays.
and i woke up at 8.00[!]
i got outta th housee at 8.20 like that.
then reach sch at 8.33?
aaaaaaah.
3 mins!
wth.
so i owe a detention.
i asked to push th detention another dayy,
coz that day got training/preparation fo cca dayy.
i loveee ncc!
.
thursday,
kecoh to find other unit's help to lend us a pace stick.
for friday.
all in all,
east spring & damai,
offered to help. :]
thank you mayyns.
& thankyouu zahid. $!
hahah.
some units just decided to pretend that they dont own one.
hahaa, its okay. i understand.
so anyway!
east spring required a letter from C.O. [leceh.]
while damai just need to fill in particulars when borrowing.
either way, i only can collect on friday after school.
but i alr told my c.o. about th letter before damai confirmed to help.
&& i'd have to go to bedok and back to tamp, wich is timeconsuming.
so, sorry damai.
:D:D
.
so friday!
cca bazaar,
i think it was goooooood!
as in th whole booth set up,
i feel gooooooood.
good job to all, esplecially hazirah!
andand, all korgs2 who made th pegs & pencils.
haha.
and,
the marching con.
dont be disheartened okay.
just our luck.
you guys've done your part.
ILY!
and THANK YOU TO TH WHOLE UNIT!
as th oic,
i think we've all done a fantabulous job in publicizing ncc!
yeayyness!
.
after that,
I DID SMTH NEW!
i ironed my sch uniform in school!
hahaha, borrow from red cross,
thank you pearlyn!
coz for parent teacher mtg for sec 4s & 5s.
den rushing lors.
get blazors lah, grabbed food, this & that.
and finally, on duty. -.-
my legs all muscle cramp fo th past 2-3 dayys.
damnnn tired.
.
HIGHLIGHT.
when i accompanied my dad to a corridor coz he wanted to pray,
i cross paths with mdm mariam,
she said someone just jumped off our block.
!
smth like he's from th 6th floor.
later my bro called,
said thrs police & blood & all.
.
got back home,
i found out tht he jumped from th 11th floor.
D:
scary man, i saw th pool of blood flowing.
it mustve been really sad fo th parents,
chinese new year coming so soon,
like this kinda thing happened.
saddening.
.
love,
~zazabon.

2009-01-10T19:26:00.003+08:00

HEHE.
just joined.
:D
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i am a ball. we are a ball.

2009-01-09T23:06:00.004+08:00

Goodbye, my bag.
mummy, kakak, abang, and a few ppl,
advised me to throw it. D: D:
alaaah.
its torn.
here & there.
survived fo a year.
will be in remembrance.
hahaha.
.

HELLO anyway.
.
today.
i said in ACE lessons,
that i am like a ball.
people push me down,
i go even higher!
suddenly i felt so chim.
xD
hahaha.
AND.
i feel that,
PRSS NCC GIRLS, we are one big ball too.
i tell you.
we're gonna roll over all these annoying humps!
hurhh.
watch us!
.
anyway,
school's been fine.
AS YOU CAN SEE,
i survived 5 days without computer/lappy/internet!
omgomg, like yay!
this shall continue.
haha.
i dowanna make facebook yet,
its gonna eat up my time.
see how.
haha.
.
so anyway!
5-7 jan was sec 1 orientation.
my group name was HERO!
hahaha.
so these are my children.
hahaha.
.
this is what they did.
.
and one of th tasks was to take a grp photo wit a teacher, & and get her autograph. :]
.
lessons, okay lah.
thou i missed that 3 days.
catching up.
.
ncc.
long story.
.
ytd i went NYP.
to watch kakak perform dikir.
and view th exhibition.
but.
we end up only watching kakak's performance thou.
ghuraba'!
like semangat man, during their trg.
aku pon mcm nak ikot nyanyi!
hahaha.
:D
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and im still busy with th cca day stuffs to do.
its on th 16th.
monday is my malay o level results. D:
wed is trg fo cca day. :]
fri is cca day & sec 4e/5n parent teacher mtg.
down fo duty as well.
OH,
tmr, iqqa going NZ!
for ICEP!
so funnnnnnnnn~~
oh ma lalling~
i'll be missing youuuuu~ :(
but we'll be going airport tmr!
sending her off.
;]
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love,
~zazabon.

missing you..

2009-01-02T19:08:00.006+08:00

hello 2009~
.
*addicted to this song once more..*
.
Missing you.

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Coz I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why did he take you away from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothing without you
Now I don't know what to do with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Coz it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothing without you
Now I don't know what to do with myself

I just don’t know what to do with myself
I can’t stop looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I want to know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby I’m missing you
Baby I’m missing you

I love you oohh God dammit I love you
Why did he did he take you away from me
Coz I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can’t go on baby
Ohhh.......
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*touchings~*
i think this song's been around since i was p6.
if im not wrong.
but its still so niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i still likeeeeee.
mwah~
.
oh, andand addicted to HEARTLESS too.
so nice.
hahahah. HEH.
.
so far, today's fine.
but my classroom's still at lvl 4. D:
thou different blk. mhmm!
& today no lesson yet.
it was so called admin dayyy.
so yeahhh!
.
oh and yana saed smth reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy funny today.
pasar lebar.
kno what she meant to say?
pasir labah.
hahahahahahaha.
like, pasir labah + paya lebar = pasar lebar?
HAHA.
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love,
~zazabon.
.
PS: i really wanna see him.

goodbye 2008.

2008-12-31T11:49:00.015+08:00

HELLO.
you know!
today's really last day of 2008!
next year is like, TOMORROW!
hmm.
lotsa plans.
but very liat to carry out.
o levels so sooooon!
D:
.
i really plan to do well.
ima work hard baybehh.
saying is easy man.
doing is different.
.
so anyway,
like finally i got adventure camp photos!
*10 - 11 Dec*
thou there's like alottttt missing~ D:
.
HAPPINESS!

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NCOs~~ + Adi.
.
Obambe~
.
Jack Sparrow~
.
Buzz Lightyear~
.
mmmmhm!

.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

frog.

.

i led three blind mice!

.

end of fear factor session~

.
we cleaned chairs~
& chill! -.-

.

this one's at admiralty park.

th amazing race, not much of my face! D: hahahah.
.

how frightful waterbombs can be..

and so,

syed & me tabulating th results~
.

hentak kaki, cepat hentak!

heh.
.

and then happy sessions!

ZA! ZA! ZABALEK!

hahaha, i likeeee~

*endd of adventure campness*

now,

wanna.

talk about.

two. zero. zero. eight.

hmmmmmm.

seriously,

so many things happened this year.

start from th beginning,

i felt th change, leaving 2e6.

entering 3e5.

february, got worrying news.

leap year day, my operation.

then i experienced and realise my family value & love in march.

while some people changed.

and i lost a best friend, like aft 3 years.

then i learnt to move on,

catch wit school,

wit caring classmates, teachers and friends & sya.

whom i really love.

there was also spec course.

where i earned my 3rd Sgt ranks,

met new NCCmates & old ones.

great timee.

and my cheeks were still having rashes.

damn pink and like tortureeeeee!

it stayed for th first half of 2008.

then alil' happiness & elomet came to th rescue. ;)

SYFOC!

the pride of No.1,

like so honoureddd.

friendship within th unit also growed.

we took 72 back and forth fo th rehearsals together.

had fun. seriously.

also established friendships within th contingent.

with th ma'ams and all.

the spirit was like so semangat man.

reallyreally funn.

& i rmbed getting so mad at farna for cancelling my name.

for i almost, ALMOST went for cambodia.

haha.

went through OBS at ubin.

met new wonderful friends. ;)

sea exp, land exp.

really experience thats like really raree.

and went through it wit the best peoples!

greatnesssss~

then, school lessons went on.

amaths failure. then went up for a while. then down again.

malay lessons which were like free periods.

then SSC; Senior Spec Course

was so happy that we managed to go.

and, over there,

during th fasting month,

was a challenge.

but th joy of breaking fast together, paid off.

the experience,

the slacking in hunger at th ampitheater.

sleeping on th seats while th chinese were having lunch,

memories!

& i met new people, once more.

especially that particular person.

who made a lil' record at my cloud9 history.

johnny.

then i earned that SSG ranks.

and a firmfirmerr friendship bloomed.

72 FTG formed.

then happiness settled in.

johnny made my day, again & again.

end years came.

end years go.

exams were just okaay.

then johnny & i trained for challenge quest. together.

challenge quest came,

hazirah got signs.

but i thot it shouldnt be anything.

challenge quest was happying, coz east WON!

had high hopes,

to go perak white water rafting,

johnny also was going.

but chikukunya came. *chikugunia*

and destroyed it all.

so once again, johnny.

he made me happier & happier.

till i think i was blinded or smth.

lets just cut it short,

i lost another person who made a mark in my life.

but 72 FTG stayed sturdy.

sya too.

and there was ubin cycling trip!

andand adventure camp!

anddd family holiday trip to selangor/negeri sembilan!

so many things happened.

but i cant possibly list down everything.

im apologize for and wrongdoings, friends.

seriously, whether i realise it or not.

and thank you to those who made an impact in my life.

positively or negatively.

without you,

2008 wouldnt have been 2008.

GOODBYE 2008!

memories shant fade,

forever engraved in meeeeee.

love,

~zazabon.

2008-12-29T03:07:00.002+08:00

Tagged by KAKAK.

who was the person who tagged you?
` kakak?

relationship between you and her?
` my sister lorr.

your 5 impressions of her?
` noisy.
` loveeeee.
` lame.
` tekks.
` storyteller.

if she becomes your enemy, you will?
` that dont happen. air dicincang tidak akan putus! ceyy ah. hahah.

what would you say to the person you like very much?
` i like you.

characteristics i like about myself?
` semangatness.
` patient wit people. i think.

characteristics i hate about myself?
` procrastinate things.
` lembek when it comes to a person i love.

for the person whom you hate, you say?
` peace be upon you.

what do the people around you feel about you?
` dont really ask them.

your crush(es)?
` that guy lor.

pass this to 10 people.
1. kakak - can i pass it back to her? -.-
2. ikaa.
3. iqqa.
4. syaza.
5. yana - wait, she dont have a blog. ohwells.
6. hazirah - neither do she.
7. sya.
8. athirah
9. hamzi - thou i doubt he'll do this. hahah.
10. farah firzanah.

if 5 & 7 were together?
` yana & sya? NOLAH. -.-

who does 5 like?
` yana. that jerk?

what colour does 9 like?
` hamzi. lets go his blog and check. ... Green/black/white,

say something about 8.
` athirah. ooh, we played ice&water, captain'sball, catching during recess, in primary school! hahaha ;D

who is 2?
` ikaa. my girl. my classmate. my love! hahahaha.

talk about 3.
` iqqa. CHAMCHOOCHEE~~ hahahaha. ^^

who's no 10 bestfriend?
` farah. heryani?

who's the sexiest among all 10?
` 1-10. x))

what colour does 4 like?
` syaza. YELLOW!

is no.4 single?
` syaza. yep, i think so.

your relationship wiith no.1?
` kakak. sisterrr, whom i can look up to~

are 5&6 bestfriend?
` yana & hazirah. yup.

no.9 surname?
` umm. hamzi arif?

7's nickname?
` SYA.JPG. hahhahaa.

say something to 8.
` see you on 30th!

say something to 9.
` asek no.9 je? hahaha.

who does 1 admire?
` 'used to admire Hafiz'

where does 1 live?
` 'in my house :D'

10 of them know who you like?
` nope.

say something to 6 when you see her?
` nah, keychain kau.

10's spouse?
` not married~~ haha.

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2008-12-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

fact is,
i still miss nadia.
& i still miss syukri.
.

cca openhouse lai le! D:

2008-12-27T19:00:00.003+08:00

happy belated bday, to iqqa!
sorry i wasnt arouuuund on your bday~~ D:
ilyg!
.
anyway, i got back last thursday night btw.
i'll put up th photos when i get em all~ ;D;D
twas really quite an experience.
kampungness, sawahness, coconutness. etc.
photos will explain it all!
.
friday morning went sch fo ncc mtg.
now im like got another big thing to do.
cca open house on 16 jan.
proposal by next week.
arif send me th typed out one alr,
but i havent see.
i can only open th attachment from kakak's lappy.
and she's outside right now. -.-
then there's th ncc blog.
ive done up th skin ytd.
http://prssncc-girlsonly.blogspot.com
the sections,
ima assign th diff sections to th diff ncos.
for them to do up.
then,
ncc shirt, hazirah just did th front design.
i think its quite simple & nice.
the back design is planned,
but either iqqa or yana gonna work it out,
as in th boot print.
then once th design is settled,
off we go to wahmee!
hahaha.
.
cca day, alotta things mayyyn.
hmm.
.
IM HAVING SORETHROAT!
& idk whyye, i slept alot today.
haha.
but i got some homework done okaay.
SOME.
thou there's still
chem, phy, geog, amaths.
emaths halfway. -.-
.
love,
~zazabon.

miss me! whee.

2008-12-21T20:09:00.004+08:00

IM OFF TO MALAYSIA TMR,
probbly be back after 5 days~
D:
miss me!
wahaha.
coz i'll beee missinggg youuuuu!
.
eh eh,
i'll miss out a whole week of little nyonya! D:
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
but but,
my mum and me gonna subscrive the mobtv thing.
i think.
hahaha.
:D:D
*xiao niang re~*
,
love,
~zazabon.

thinkthinkthink.

2008-12-20T18:50:00.004+08:00

hwaiiyaak!

peace be upon everyyone~

you know,

ive been thinking,

when we do something wrong,

when we do a sin,

when we do something bad,

half th time, we probably fogot th consequences,

& forgetting how sinful it is.

and when we remember,

we'd be like,

nevermind lah,

sinful-sinful oso, it serves me right,

since i did this sin, the sin rightfully goes to me.

but then again,

there is smthing important that ive been forgetting every now and then.

which is what i believe in,

which all muslims believe in.

i keep forgettng that whatever sin or deed that i do,

my dad gets an equal share.

that goes to every daughter.

that their father gets a share in their sins/deeds.

until,

she gets married.

then her husband would get a share in her sins/deeds.

something like that.

i feel so bad.

im so sorry, ayah.

so to all girls,

please think again before you do something,

consider your what your father is facing.

to all guys,

when you're married,

try to reduce your wife's sins?

haha.

okay, you see,

i love my dad.

like seriously.

and this is not th first time he sound me or my sister.

but i dont know what makes it so hard fo me to do that right move.

i think only my sis would know what im talking about.

we had a crying session over this before.

HM.

ANYWAY,

LOOK LOOK!

*EAGLES AWARD!* hehehhh

this is my madrasa report slip.

look at my attendance!

9/19!

hahahahahaha.

suddenly my arab like woah. xD

hahaha.

andand, from being 40+ position,

6th!

^^ HEHHEE.

andand,

ytd i was stockchecking wit my mum,

my home dvds & vcd~

haha.

we relisted down th whole stock in a book.

its like th *TEEVEE MENU*

or smth.

alphabetical order summore.

wahaha. xD yeayyy~

love,

~zazabon.

nerd aspiring moments~

2008-12-17T19:03:00.004+08:00

I WILL BE STUDYING.
OR ATLEAST DO & FINISH UP ALL MY HOMEWORK.
EVEN THOSE PROCRASTINATED FROM BFO SCHOOL CLOSED.
EVEN THOSE WHICH ARE NOT GONNA BE COLLECTED.
{:
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why?
.
because olevel's in 10months or so.
IM GONNA BE A NERD STARTING TODAY.
i hope.
:D
.
youknow,
ive yet to decide whther to go jc or poly.
D:
but ive made up my mind that im gonna be an entrepreneur.
like seriously.
if i go poly,
go business school lah hoh.
i wanna go university! 8)
thats th only reason that would make me wanna go jc.
heh.
ANY SUGGESTIONS?
maybe i should do some polling or smth!
hahaha.
.
im excited to muggg.
but then.
you know it will fade off lah duh.
lazy ass!
wahaha.
.
love,
~zazabon.

UBIN!

2008-12-17T00:58:00.014+08:00

okay!

so i went ubin on sat~~

im just gonna let the pictures talk okaiie!

GEREK GILERRR!
overall, i had super funn!
.
love,
~zazabon.

2008-12-17T00:36:00.007+08:00

i am gonna blog about UBIN!
.
but before that,
my dear friend,
wants his name to be here.
so.
just see.
hahahahaha.
.
AND YES,
YOU'RE WELCOME.
$!
.
love,
~zazabon.

adventure camp.

2008-12-12T18:41:00.008+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
alrite. alrite.
alrite. alrite.
alrite. alrite.
alrite. alrite. alrite. alrite.
alrite. alrite. alrite. alrite. alrite.
alrite. alrite. alrite. alrite. alrite.
.
wahahaha.
OKAY HELLO.
.
im like superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr tired right noww.
my whole body's achingg!
D: help~
.
yesterday & yesterday's yesterday,
was adventure camp!
yayyyynesss~
haha.
i think as overall,
it was a success.
altho the amazing race like got cock up.
coz we kena sabotagedd!
eeee,
whichever idiot who set it up,
shit you.
HM.
.
and cadets,
please dont blame us, mee bcoz you cant find th clue,
blame that idiot.
coz seriously,
hazirah & me set it up nice nice.
and dont complain that the flag colour blend in wit th grass?
its your luck, man.
in a war,
your enemies dont dress up in striking pink amongst th bushes, you know.
-.-
so yup.
and thank you for ur cooperation.
hehhehh. ;D
.
BTW, THIS IS LIKE TH ONLY MISERABLE PHOTO IVE GOT.
WAIT TILL I GET TH REST FROM KOK CHEONG.
;D;D
.
hmmm whr shall i start?
oh yeh, thr was ice breaker games!
hahaha
okaylah not bad.
i think they enjoyed th couple run.
haha. :D:D
i tired seh.
i just ran wit i-fogot-who, i think hamzi. eh?
who was on my left,
suddenly,
i kene tapped on my right,
then run again!
so shocking~
hahaha.
-.-
i rmb at council camp, this game,
i accident while running wit dany,
until my lips swollen! D:
haha, overall i think we didnt have enough time to play icebreakers actually.
i think it was like so short.
heh~
.
then!
we had dragonboating!
hahaha.
like yay.
it was fun lah.
altho th race, my team didnt win,
we got 3 out of 4,
haha,
i still hadddd funn!
wheeeheee! ;D;D
photos all wit kok cheong,
i will ask him to send mee.
:D:D
.
after dragonboating,
hazirah, shamin & i went back to school by taxi first.
nidta retrieve the lunch from my mummy.
NASI GORENG.
haha.
so yupp, thank you mummy.
and sissie for delivering. ;D
.
then! we had feat factor.
got 4 stations.
all of th cadets blindfolded all th way.
.
got the taste taste tingy.
wich is not thatttt feary, but nehmyn lah hoh.
its like
marshmallows + lada hitam,
marshmallows + buah pelaga
marshmallows + tomato sauce.
marshmallows + another spice, i fogot th name.
we wanted to put marshmallow plus colgate, but we fogot to brg th colgate. haha.
.
another station,
th maze station.
th maze got a 'cave' like dat.
then, the maze we wanted to put crickets.
but i was like,
if they escape how sia.
hahaha.
imagine they enter th shirts & pants..
all that.
EEEEEE.
i myself dowan sia. D:
hahaha.
so we end up just putting th crickets wich were in a container,
at th cave.
haha.
i saw a cadet like, blindly rummage rummage,
then felt th container,
"eh what is this?"
i was like ehhhhh nooo!
put it back!
hahaha.
:x whoops.
umm, i think i wasnt suppose to do that. heh!~
.
another station,
frogs in th bucket.
then got alphabets inside.
suppose to dip in their hand to get th alphabets out.
haha.
but,
th station becum diff alr,
end up th ncos make fun,
let em hold th frogs lah.
etc.
one of them almost licked it!
eeeeeeeeeeee.
hahaha,
i myself dont dare touch!
eek.
.
another station,
suppose to transport guppies.
hm.
.
we gave a lil' hell.
just shout shout.
hentak kaki. etc.
.
haha. heh,
on behalf of all ncos,
we apologize for any personal attacks.
please dont take it to heart.
:]:] its ncc. hoho.
.
2nd day!
advanced party went to admiralty park first,
including me to prepare fo th amazing race.
*I BROUGHT MY BIKE*
so meanwhile,
th cadets make their flag.
me and hazirah were setting up th flags.
at th checkpoints,
i cycle, hazirah stand behind.
thenthen,
we otw back,
thr's a slope.
we fell!
but, LUCKILY,
by God's grace,
we fell right, exactly before th slope!
wah, like got hikmah seh.
if we didnt fall there,
we'd probbly fall tumbling down th steepsteep slope.
.
haha.
so we fell,
hazirah fell on top of me.
haha.
i got bruised.
but we both were like laughinggggg.
hahahahaha.
then back th ampitheater,
yana, and adi helped aid me.
we used waterbomb th water to wash th wound.
its like th wound is th exact same spot tht i fall th other dayyyy! -.-
hahah.
then th alcohol wipe is like
jildwujedlskmcdsmcisxxzmxsxsdjowiw.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
help.
*helpless* .
like tht.
.
haha -.-
okay. stop about myself.
the game rightttttttt,
we kena sabotagedd.
besides th flag stolen,
the waterbombs all kene poked.
each one seh.
omg,
these ppl ah, like nothg better to do. =.=
waste our ppl's effort.
kesian iswan, syed, hoibing, yubin.
sighhhh.
.
so we end up playing smth else there.
mhmm.
quick thinking.
.
some of th cadets complain this and that.
but there was th shalihin,
i overheard his positive words.
it made me like happy like dat.
haha. ;);)
.
at th end of th whole thing,
i was like tiredddddd,
but glad that its all done,
mostly done as planned.
.
i enjoyedddd th whole thing lah.
if onlyyy it was overnitee.
it'dve been moree funn, wont it?
haha.
.
BUT, wit all this happiness,
some asshole just hadta do some crime.
=.=
so foreign workers/cleaners stole our prizes fo th cadets.
altho only yana & ika would kno th exact items. hmmm.
there's alotttta things lah.
:/
.
so we owe th winning team fo th amazing race some prezzies.
wich is Buzz Lightyear!
hahaha.
then followed by Obambe & Jack Sparrow.
:D:D
i love th names.
esp jack sparrow!
<3<3!
.
love,
~zazabon.

hari.raya.haji.

2008-12-09T00:40:00.008+08:00

hoya hoiii!

sometimes i feel that things are unnecessary.

but i layankan,

coz you have no dosa wit me.

and that since its none of my loss.

i think.

so yeah.

hahaha. ;D

oh yes,

selamat belated hari raye haji!

this year i never visited my friends.

the sheepiies~

but i went acik's house coz kendurii on my mum side.

yeayy.

today i first time testing contact lens.
hahah.

its not mine actually.

my bro's, the disposable one.

its th non-coloured one anyways.

my degree is higher than his,

so umm. i was still blind. partially!

its like my primary school years vision when i take off my specs.

haha.

camwhored tday!

look.

in the carrr as always~~

th cacats family!

hahahah.

at acik's!

theee girls~

i know i look weird. D:

heh.

then aft that we went bik yul's house, my dad side.

btw!

check out what ive been doing past few days.

its more of last week actually.

i did for myself.

for fun actually.

:D:D

then i decided to do it fo syaza's bday!

hehuuhaa~

nicenice?

^^ heeeh!

we didnt meet syaza thou!

and this,

clues of surprise!

hehhehhh~~

&& im so looking forward for adventure camp!

:D:D

went thru so much trouble alr mayyn.

hahaha.

oh ,

this is on sat!

saw my kaksitikoos @ swensens that one.

haha.

love,

~zazabon.

johnny.

2008-12-07T02:38:00.008+08:00

okay.
hello.
im feeling peaceful right now.
.
the following is directed to someone.
but im just gonna name you johnny.
i wanted to send you the following chunk directly to you friendster.
as in like friendster message, not comment.
but then again,
i think about it, like kakak said.
I HAVE EGO.
its not like this thing is able to change you right?
if it does, that'd take a miracle.
because i was told that bahalols like you dont change as simply as that.
.
so yeah,
i dowanna waste what ive typed so long.
so i'll just post it here.
now i dont care if johnny reads this or not.
okay hi johnny.
HAHA, the name's annoying.
like i cant imagine you being called johnny. xD
.
so here goes.
.
oh great.
all along, you ve been attached.
great.
7 months.
what kinda boyfriend goes around wit othr girls?
a bastard one lah kan. :D
what i was told was just your ex, th one from ur sch.
wah, timing or what?
so much for your iloveyous.
why did you hafta toy wit my feelings mannn.
you knew i never liked false hope.
then toy wit my feelings some more.
aiyoo.
its not always that i fall in love, man.
and you hadta do this.
you lied to me.
alllllllllll thoseeee mushy lovey dovey stuff,
were allllllllll fake!
you cheated me.
you used me.
eh,,
got girlfriend, buat hal dah ade girlfriend lehh.
dont lie to ppl, claiming and acting like you're single.
making me heartbroken is one thing,
cheating your own girlfriend,
is another.
gosh,
i really pity her xia.
if only she knows all this.
i'd be so glad to let her knw what her boyfriend has done.
i can show her my whole flooded inbox & sent items filled wit your name.
seriously,
girls dont deserve to be treated like this.
i said those iloveyous & imissyous because i meant it.
and because i was told by you that you were single.
i wouldnt wanna kacau a guy who's alr attached seh.
and you?
i dont understand your purpose of doing all that.
you're attached, dammit.
like,
you didnt mean all that!
and you said you did.
like whaaaatthe.
you knw how dented my heart is when you didnt layan mee?
it was a good thing,
that realise that you shouldnt be doing this since you alr have a girlfriend.
but befo you start to stop layaning,
you should be making things clear seh.
and now i realized your words those days were all bedek.
"agak-agak, i can be your first boyfriend, tak?"
sureee, righttttttt! -.-
i let you kissd me because, i loved you.
i kissed you back, because you claimed tht u loved me & i thot you're a man of your word.
i let you touch me, because you brought me hope that you're gonna be mine.
i thot you were gonna be mine.
my god.
i was soo wrong.
you were attached, dammit.
you're another girl's.
and i had no knowledge of that.
why did you hafta contactcontact mee, man.
please lah,
'i love you', 'i syg u', 'i miss you' are among th words which are very precious to girls.
dont say them for fun.
coz girls only take it that you mean it.
coz we dont play around wit ppls feelings here.
wake up.
be loyal to your girlfriend.
dont go contacting othr girls behind her back.
and dont go contacting girls, and claiming that you're single.
you're just breaking more & more hearts.
wake up, seriously, johnny.
stop being sucha jerk and flirt.
be matured.
once a person is attached,
he should only be flirting wit his girlfriend.
dont ask fo other girls' number when you're attached.
even IF you wanna have a scandal,
let th scandal know that she's just a scandal.
let her knw where she stands.
dont lead her on either.
then she would be able to decide whether she wanna be a scandal or not.
rather than she felt as thou you loved her.
u knw, i thot you were a good guy.
maybe as a friend, you were.
but as a boyfriend/lover/scandal/crush/etc,
oh man, you suck.
i really want you to know,
that i really loved you.
but i am not a person that you should be toying with.
no one should be toyed with.
you think you can sukesuke push me around as you please,
step on my head as you please,
just because i was in love with you?
no man.
serious shit, no.
you broke my heart.
it'd break your gf's heart if she finds out as well.
and you didnt keep to your word when you said that when if you lost ur love for me,
you'll say it direct.
i even reminded you to.
but you didnt.
you just, left me hanging.
youknow,
its like,
i wanna move on, but idk whether you were gonna come back.
coz you left me that tiny bit of hope that made me think that you might come back.
until i found out.
that.
you're like
7months attached?
serious ah, great.
& within this 7months, you broke up wit that girl that you saed your classmates took her away from you.
and within this 7months,
you confessed to me that you loved me.
i honestly dont know, whether you were sincere.
i had my lesson learnt.
you uh, please get your lesson learnt.
dont take girls as thou they're so easy to get, easy to throw.
as a friend,
i wanna ask you to
please, be loyal to ONE girl, at ONE time.
coz having multiple girls,
will just make people lose their respect for you.
and it was cowardly of you,
to just avoidavoidavoid me,
by not answering my calls those days.
and havg ur friend to answer it instead.
cant you simply answer,
or reply,
and simply say like,
'faizah, im so sorry but ive lost my feelings for you.
ive got a girlfriend, please dont contact me anymore...'?
or smth like dat?
thou thats gonna suck,
but leaving me hanging & letting me find it out myself is much worse.
please dont do this to other girls?
you know,
i see th testiiemomos from your girlfriend,
it just made me feel like,
shit, i just messed up wit somebody's boyfriend,
and damn, johnny dont seem to deserve her love & devotion.
she dont deserve to be neglected lah, little boy.
just look at how devoted she is to you.
.
i hope you really understand what ive been blabbering about.
i really hope that you really love your girlfriend wit all your heart.
think about it man.
be matured.
seriously,
be matureddddddd!
.
i think we just destroyed one friendship, right here.
we could have been simple friends.
i want that kinda friendship from you.
really normal friends
& i'll just foget allllll these shit,
that you've given me.
whether thats gonna happen or not,
it now depends on you.
coz ive understood everything and gonna ikhlasly let you go.
bcoz you belong to someone else.
idk if you still gonna be around,
just as a friend.
bcoz i dont like it if a pair of friends initially,
suddenly just dont talk anymore.
i dont like things to end so badly.
.
so umm, any words of defence?
or anything you wanna deny?
i'll think about it, whether to tell your girlfriend what you did, or not.
.
haha,
takecare.
peace out.
.
haha.
ohwells.
i seriously pity th gf.
im so sorry, i didnt know.
we're both victims here.
i just hope that God will answer to your prayers,
that you will bukak your materr,
to realise what you bf did.
somehow.
because.
i realised that,
all this happend,
right when God answered to my prayers.
serious shit.
i prayed about an issue on th 11 nov.
then things started going haywire that week.
bit by bit,
but yeah.
i love you God.
for making me strong at this moment.
im not as lembek as how i was for th past weeks.
i could take the blow that i found out ytd.
i seriously, syukurrrrrr to you, Allah.
for blessing wit all tht i have today.
like as in,
for a family who'se been hereeee all th wayyy for me.
and bestfriends who're like superb!
.
and johnny,
i shall just thank you for that temporary happiness.
haha.
im over it.
.
btw,
i finally blow to kakak,
a summary of what happened.
haha, if not ive been keeping mum to her about it.
.
ooh ooh!
i went orchard just now,
wit acik & family.
to saksikan kaksitikoos at work.
the swensens there.
so heheh, we ate swensens. :D
.
and btw!
mr. zahid had a sudden interest of my past?
hahahaha, coz of boredom.
and he read thru my archives.
-.-
eeeeeeeeeeeee,
my kental days.
hahaha.
so becoz of him,
i went back in time, too.
went thru my archive.
the august 2005's kinda touching.
hahah whooops. :x
so yup.
.
you know,
i think i might wanna start writing in paragraphs again.
instead of line by line,
like all these.
hahaha.
*testing testing*
.
you know, i think i might wanna start writing in paragraphs again. instead of line by line, like all these. hahaha. *testing testing*
.
love,
~zazabon.

diamond or stones?

2008-12-02T23:59:00.005+08:00

just smthg general to alllll guys & everyone out there,
.
issit really thattt difficult just to keep loyal to one, and not to leave your girl disappointed?

as hazirah says,

.
coz i keep hearing neverending stories of these kinda asses.
hmm.
please dont disappoint my sisters.
cherish them.
.
i aint talking just about my closeclose girlfriends,
my other girlfriends too yknow.
is this like a trend right now?
neglected girls?
haha nooo -.-
.
but to those who really do,
i really applaud you for that
and that brings me hope,
so long as such people still does exist.
:)
.
ANYWAY!
i kinda feel good today.
spent the whole day wit ikaa & hachilahh consecutively.
haha, we got lotsa things done!
^^
i miss iqqaaa, yanaaa, & syakaaa!
looking forward to next weeeek, yeayyy!
oh oh ooh, looking forward to fridayyy!
hehhee.
.
love,
~zazabon.